I Won't Give Up ~ Michael Clifford

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~Recap~

Michael sighs deeply, thinking I guess because he doesn't say anything for a few minutes that I thought he fell asleep. "You know Bree, I honestly don't know what I can say to ease your thoughts..let alone my own at this moment, but I can tell you this" He lets out a shaky breathe, "I'm sorry you have to go through this, I know you never wanted this to happen and I want you to know that I'm here for you. I'll be right behind you in whatever decision you make."

I smile and he continues. "Hey Bree? There's something I need to tell you but I don't know if it's the right time or not but I really can't hold it in anymore." He takes a deep breathe, "Bree, the passed two years have been the absolute best, with our late night calls or the little messages throughout the day, and FaceTime dinners, that was all amazing only because you showed me that you see me as a normal person instead of the famous Michael Clifford from 5 Seconds Of Summer. Bree, in my little speech thing, what I'm trying to say is.. I really really like you."

For the second time tonight, my heart stopped and my breathe hitched.

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"You like me?" I managed to say.

"I thought it was obvious. Everyone else seen it, Sammy and the boys seen it. Hell, even my mom noticed the way I talked about you when I was home." Michael says, letting out a breathe.

"Well... I don't know if it's the right time for me to go through this but, Michael, I really like you too" I smile, and his eyes go wide and mouth goes gape.

"You do?" I nod and he smiles, pulling me in for a warm comforting hug. "I know that it shouldn't be talked about at this moment but would you consider being my girlfriend sometime in the near future?"

I inhaled sharply, thinking for a bit. "Mikey, I can't answer that." I look up at him, "At this moment because I don't know what I'm going to do about this jellybean in my stomach and Ricky." I stroked his cheek lightly, "But what I can say is this... When I do decide what I want, I'll let you know. I do love you Michael, I mean I've fallen in love with you since I saw the tweet Louis put out about you guys."

Michael bites his lip and his eyes are glossy, "Okay. I'll wait for you Bree, i won't ever give up on you. I don't care how long I have to wait, you really are worth the wait" he nods his head and I nod mine.

"I'm sorry it's not the answer you wanted to hear but I do love you Mikey" I kiss his cheek and I feel sleepy so I lay on my side, laying my hand over my almost noticeable belly.

"Good night love." He rolls on his side, his back facing me and I frown.

Michael;

She likes me but she doesn't want me. Feelings are so confusing with girls, well actually, girls are so confusing with feelings. That sounds more right.

"Good night love." I say, turning my back to her and I lay there feeling like I want to cry. I decide to go into the washroom, so I slowly get up and go to the bathroom. I lock the door and run the tap with cold water, I look at my reflection and instantly, I break down.

I couldn't take it anymore, I felt weak, broken, just everything opposite of happiness. I slide down the wall and hold my face in my hands, gosh I'm so soft hearted I think to myself, I shake my head.

I run my hands through my hair and I decided that I can't stay here, well I can but I need to go out for a bit. Maybe some cold air would help me calm down and become tired.

I go out into the room and grab my sweater, headphones, phone and wallet, I write out a messy note for the boys:

Hey,
Went for a walk to cool off and think. I got my phone so text me.