I Won't Give Up ~ Michael Clifford

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"Cake, Sam?" I say, their attention landing on me, "Can... Can I talk to you guys, privately." They don't say anything but nod, so I get up first, going out into the waiting room.

I'm nervous, scared even, for their reactions- especially Sammy's, but I feel like this is the right thing to do, they deserve to hear my side.

"What's up man?" Calum asks, sitting down. Luke and Sammy follow suit but I stay standing and pace, trying to think of how to say this out loud.

"It's my fault." I mutter, three pairs of eyes are staring into my soul in seconds.

"What?" They say in sync.

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Michael;

"It's my fault that she's in here, in that room." I explain, my eyes keep their stare at the floor. "I was driving while I consumed alcohol before. We left the hotel and I was fine until I left the parking garage, and-" I stopped myself as I broke down, my face in my hands as I fell to the floor.

"You're the reason she's in here. You're a fucking asshole!" Sammy lunged at me with angry tears in her eyes.

Calum caught her mid-air and took her someplace else and then it was Luke and I, I was scared to meet his gaze but I ended up looking at him and he was zoned out on the wall behind me.

"Luke..." I mumbled, really wanting to explain myself and my side of the story but that's just it, I was driving while intoxicated and then we got into the accident.

He put his hand up, signalling for me to stop as he diverted his gaze to the window that looks into the ICU, and I could see his eyes are glossy. He blinks repeatedly and the hot tears fall but he's quick to wipe them away.

Luke;

I didn't know how to react to his statement, I didn't know what to say and I honestly didn't even want to look at him, so I keep my eyes on the windows that look into the ICU department where my best friend lays because of Michael.

I'm feeling so much emotions at once and it's not okay at all, and I don't know how to deal with it; I want to scream in anger, I want to cry in heartbreak, and worse of all, I want to kind of punch Michael in the face a few times but I know that would be immature of me to do.

"I'm not going to say I'm glad you told us the truth, I'm not going to say I'm happy you're okay, but I will say I'm pretty disappointed and angry with you and in all honesty, I wanna hurt you for putting her in this situation because you stupidly decided to drive while intoxicated." I state, giving him a cold stare and he cowers in his chair as I stand up.

"Luke, let me-" Michael sits up, but I cut him off.

"-No Michael! I will not do anything. I will not listen to you. You let my best friend, never mind your girlfriend, get hurt! You should just be glad that Declan wasn't there with you, imagine that... What's happening with Declan, huh? You're going to play daddy for the time being until she wakes up? What happens if child services gets involved, how are you going to back that up with you looking after a child that's not even yours?"

I stood there in front of Michael with angry tears in my eyes, I don't regret what I had just said, it's the truth. Michael's sitting there with a hurt expression amongst his face at the words I just said, but like I said, I don't regret it.

"How could you say stuff like that? Especially in a situation like this?" Michael mutters, his voice cracking and I scoff with an eye roll.

"I'm going to stop and I'm going to leave before something happens." I confirm that the conversation was over and I walked away down the busy hospital corridor.