I Won't Give Up ~ Michael Clifford

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Bree;
28 weeks

It's been two months and a lot has happened. Michael and I have been non-stop shopping for our baby boy, the nursery is almost done and the theme of it is a starry night with the moon in one corner and stars all around. Rowan is now seven months and two weeks, Miles is six months and two weeks. Declan will be seven in July already, I'm so sad because my babies are growing up so fast and I don't like it; I don't want them to grow up, I want them to stay small forever!

The guys' tour only has a few more shows left and then tours over, Michael and I were talking about going back to my hometown for a two weeks worth visit and I, being completely ecstatic, agreed. We've talked with Dec too and we're letting him stay with Ricky for the first week in Vancouver then Ricky will bring him to the island himself after that; so Declan is super excited to see and spend time with his dad again. I can't wait to spend two weeks at home with my family, I just want to go now but I don't want to travel alone with the kids.

Luke and Kayleigh broke up a month ago due to the truth coming out about the kiss between him and I, and the fact he's in love with me still; she had told Luke that she couldn't be with a guy who's in love with someone else, Luke understood and had said he hopes they'll cross paths again even if it's just as friends. He's been hanging in there, hasn't been abusing alcohol like he used to and come to think of it, he only has one shot and one beer before every show then he comes back to the hotel to rest for the next day.

We're in Phoenix, Luke took Rowan and Declan to the park about half an hour ago so Michael and I decided to check out the mall and food court here. We were window shopping and I saw this cute Mickey Mouse clubhouse set that includes a blanket, a towel, a bath rag and a toque; I convinced Mikey to get it for our boy, he sighed but we bought it anyways.

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"I like the name Jared..." Michael admits while I take a bite of my chicken, after going back and forth in the court, we decided on Nandos.

"Reminds me of Jared Padelecki that plays Sam in Supernatural." I giggle and Mikey grins, "I was thinking about it for a while now, and was going through baby names on the internet and I came across the name Nash Charlie Clifford."

I looked up at him and he had the biggest smile on his face, "He'll have my last name?"

I nodded and he got up, coming over to my side of the table and brought me into his grasp while kissing my cheek a bunch of times.

"It's settled then, our boy is now Nash Charlie Clifford." He gave me a passionate kiss before going back to his side and we finished our food before we decided to head back to the hotel.

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Luke;

"Thank you Phoenix! We'll be back, we promise!" I say into the mic, pressing my fingers to my lips before sending them a kiss then we jog offstage.

"Great show lads!" Cal says, blowing air out heavily while wiping his face with a towel.

"I can't believe we have three more shows before tours over!" Ashton says, taking a big drink of water.

We relax backstage before Derek tells us it's time to go, we grab our belongings before heading out back to the SUV and we get driven back to the hotel.

"So I was thinking, just a thought actually, we could go out for some drinks to celebrate." Cal says out loud while looking around at us all, Ash and Michael agree and they all look at me.

In all honesty, I've slowed down on the alcohol a bit before Kayleigh and I broke up; lately I just have a shot and one beer before every show then I stop. I wouldn't mind going out to hangout with the guys but I wouldn't drink, probably a couple glasses of some sort of pop but that'd be it. My mind tells me to go but my mouth had different plans.