TRISTFUL. GRUVIA

XIX. HAPPY

bold —   j.l ; italics — g.f

 

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My feet pounded against the ground, eyes focused on the path in front of me, a single thought fixated into my mind.

I felt so breathless, so empty. It was as if everything that I held so dearly to me was now gone..it was as if everything that gave me a reason to keep on living, had just been drained.

Determination boiled inside of me, this strong urge to find Lyon increasing at a rapid pace, my steps quickening.

I could feel the sorrow running through my veins, feelings of angst and uneasiness casting down on me like a shadow as several droplets continued to bombard onto me.

It was up to me to clear away the misunderstandings that were responsible for tearing us apart, I had to tell him how I truly felt, before all of this would break us both entirely.

I had just lost the love of my life..she was now gone. Juvia had abandoned me right before my eyes, running towards another, running towards someone who wasn't me.

Lyon and I..we had if all. He was the one for me. I couldn't bare to lose him so soon, I couldn't bare to just let go of what we had.

I had acted as if those words she spoke hadn't fazed me at all, I had acted as if she meant nothing to me, during that moment that took place minutes ago. But she honestly meant the world to me..even if she didn't know it, even if I had failed to figure out how I felt on time.

Losing him, would mean the end of me.

It was true..you don't realize how much someone means to you until they vanish, until they leave you. It isn't until you can no longer have the chance to tell that special person those three particular words..

Because I loved him.

I love you.

With all of my heart.

That you discover what you've been missing for all of that time.

Why did my lack of sanity have to get the best of me?

Why did my ruthless mistakes always end up hurting others?

Why couldn't I ever be normal?

Why am I such a monster?

I knocked on his door, a taste of anticipation overflowing me.

My hands trembled, stomach churning, as the guilt came back to slowly pick me apart.

Through the reflection of his window, Lyon's eyes inquisitively looked upon mine.. They were so heartbroken, so agonized.

It was all of my fault..that she got hurt in the first place. It was all of my fault..that she was unable wear a genuine smile.

Fear enveloped my fragile mind. A fear, that he would reject me, that he wouldn't accept my apology.

Why did I ever think that she would ever love..someone like me? I had ruined her life after all..I didn't deserve her. It was probably best that she went for Lyon..he didn't do the things that I did to her. He didn't hurt her.

The gap between us then abolished, the door widened open. We were now face to face. I bit my lip.

My eyes found their way below me, only to stare at the hard cold ground. The hard cold ground, that reminded me of myself, about how hard and cruel I was to her.

"Lyon, I'm truly sorry. I didn't mean what I had said earlier..I miss you very much."

"I'm sorry..for everything I ever did to you, Juvia."

His arms wrapped around me, his whispers releasing the anxiety that had been kept inside of me for all of this time. Just the sound of his voice comforted me, assuring me that all would be okay.

I blinked, wonder crossing all over me, the rain that once fell over me gone.

My lips curved into a shape of a grin, joy wavering in the atmosphere. I was finally feeling what it felt like to be truly content.

The sky..it was so clear, so pure. Juvia was finally happy.

It was all thanks to Silver..his advice was the reason for all of this.

Happy, without me.