Searching For My Future Husband [COMPLETED]

Chapter 50 - Batman Returns

I’m dizzy. Seeing spots. Stumbling. Walk or bus? Walk or bus?

I’m walking. Yes, I’ll walk home.

But then I see the bus and somehow I’m on the bus and I’m sobbing my guts out.

A hipster with an ironic mustache shifts down a row. An elderly man in a basebal cap knits his brows at me, and the woman with the quilted jacket looks as if she actual y wants to say something.

I twist away and continue weeping.

I’m off the bus and I’m staggering toward dorm.

It feels like someone is clawing at my stomach, my chest, my heart.

Like my insides are being ripped from my body and stitched to my skin for the world to ridicule.

How could my life change so drastically, so quickly?

It’s over.

I want to crawl into bed and disappear. I don’t want to see anyone. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I don’t want to think or do anything.

Vince..

I clutch my chest. I can’t breathe.

Get inside, Mira. You’re almost there

Habang nasa stairs ako ay nakita ko agad si Ping at Christiansa may pinto ko.

“Mira? What’s going on, what happened?”

I get inside , lock my door and fall against it.

I collapse.

Pearl is knocking and shouting questions.

“VINCE AND I BROKE UP, OKAY? LEAVE ME ALONE.”

The last word is cut off as my throat swells and blocks it.

There’s an agitated murmuring on the other side.

It sounds like Christian is pulling away Pearl.

"Mira.. kung kailangan mo ko tawagan mo lang ako ah..." sabi ni Pearl sabay narinig ko na bumaba na sila.

The hall is quiet.  

I’m alone now. I’m actually alone.

I throw myself into bed, shoes and all.  

The rational side of me knows that I need some kind of release. But I can’t cry anymore. I’m empty. I’m drained. And I can’t move.

Not that I’d want to.

Because that’s the thing about depression. When I feel it deeply, I don’t want to let it go. It becomes a comfort. I want to cloak myself under its heavy weight and breathe it into my lungs. I want to nurture it, grow it, cultivate it. It’s mine. I want to check out with it, drift asleep wrapped in its arms and not wake up for a long, long time.

I’ve been spending a lot of time in bed this week.

When you’re asleep, no one asks you to do anything. No one expects anything of you. And you don’t have to face any of your troubles. So I’ve been dragging myself to school and I’ve been sleeping.

Vince is gone. And not just gone as in he’s not my boyfriend anymore, but gone as in he’s gone.

Eunice texted me that they're leaving yesterday... Its part of the deal...

Aalis sila ng bansa.. para maka move on ako..

He finally ran away. Without me.

I wish it didn’t hurt to think about him. And I’m not upset because I want to be with him, I don’t, but he was so much to me for so long.

I thought he was my future.

And now he’s nothing. 

He was my first since Michael and I broke up, which means I’ll never be able to forget him,.

I didn’t know it was possible to simultaneously hate and ache for someone. I thought Vince and I would be together forever. 

My friends are worried, but they’ve been leaving me alone so that I can heal.

Anna and Denille.. they have been calling me, pero hindi ko sinasagot...

Pearl, Christian and Dylan... lagi silang nanjan tinutulungan ako and I'm thankful for that..

Tiffy.. well he's calling me... but I'm not always in the mood to talk to him...

They said that time heals..

As if it were possible to ever heal from heartbreak.

I was laying at my bed when someone opened the window...

Mag nanakaw? O_O

Tumayo ako para tignan kung sino nag bukas ng binatana ko... 

Pag bukas ko ng ilaw ay may nakita akong lalaking naka'maskara na itim..... half na maskara lang yung tipong mata niya lang ang natatakpan pero yung bandang bibig niya naman walang takip..

Hindi ako pwedeng mag kamali..

Batman?

"How are you?Ayos ka na ba?"

Siguro nabalitaan niya yung tungkol sa nanyare samin ni Vince..

Biglang tumulo yung luha ko..

Ewan ko kung dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko dahil kay Vince .. o dahil natutuwa ako na andito siya..

"Did you love him?” 

I swallow.

“Yes.”

He looks unhappy.

“And do you stil love him?” tanong niya.

But before I can answer, nag salita ulit siya.

“Forget it, I don’t want to know.”

And suddenly he pushed me in my bed, he's on top of me.

He brought his lips to mine, kissing me tenderly , passionately .. and it felt good..

His soft lips fit mine perfectly, setting my body on fire..

He traced his tongue along my bottom lip and I opened my mouth eager for more, I felt his tongue slip in and massage mine gently and slowly , the taste of him was amazing..

I brought my arms up and wrapped them around his neck tangling my hands into his hair trying to get him closer to me.. I kissed him hungrily as if I could devour his soul....

There’s passion, but there’s also an urgency verging on panic. He pulls me closer, he’s gripping me so tightly.

I pull back, gasping for breath. Reeling. His breath is ragged.

Then bigla siyang umalis sa ibabaw ko.

Bumangon ako para tignan kung saan siya nag punta, pag tingin ko sa bintana ko naka sara na...

Umalis na siya...

Oh, no.

I’m a bad kisser. I am, I must be.

***A/N: Ayan last update .... for now.. ^_~

Gravity pinag puyatan ko tong tatlong UD ko kase gustong gusto ko na to tapusin , pag nag aaral ako iniisip ko yung story ko, single pa man din ako ngayon iniiisip ko kung kailan ba ko magiging katulad ni Miracle!!! Chos. Well I'm here to say din na estimated 19 more chapters to go tapos na to. Ang bilis diba? Konti na lang oh.Haha XD

Anyway I dedicate this chapter sa reader ko na never say never ang pag hula kay Batman para sayo talaga to eh. Nawa'y napasaya kita sa chapter na to. ^_^

Sa lahat ng readers ko.. SALAMAT! Isipin ko lang na may mga taong nag babasa ng gawa ko solve na ko! Kahit hindi popular at its finest tong story ko dahil sainyo na i'inspire parin ako. Salamat >:D<