Fear // Ashton Irwin

Chapter 1

*Fae's P.O.V*

Earlier the same day.

"Have you packed?" I asked Ashton. We always talked a few minutes before I went to bed. We didn't have a rule about it, he just always called me and greeted me with a casual 'what's up', and I always went silent until we both began to laugh.

"Yeah, I would hope so. I can't wait to get out there and just play music, you know what I mean?" I heard him say with a little chuckle at the end.

"Well how should I know? I literally never played music before." I said like he was some sort of idiot.

"Don't you dare sass me, it's not my fault you don't have a talent like me." he said, a clear sarcasm in his voice.

"Ouch, well now I'm glad I'm not gonna see you for the next couple of months." I laughed. But he didn't laugh back like he always would. There was just a silence between us. I thought he'd hung up until he broke the silence.

"I'm going to miss you, Fae." he said.

"I am going to miss you too, Ashton, but this is going to be great. This is your big chance to show everyone that you have talent. And Michael, Luke and Calum will be there too, don't you dare worry about me." I said. He was going to be away for 3 months, and I already knew I would miss everything about it, but this was a huge opportunity for him and his band. And it made me happier than sad to be honest.

"I'm sorry, Fae. I'm just nervous that must be it." and then he laughed the beautiful laugh that I couldn't get enough of. I wish I could make a whole CD of it and just keep it forever.

Okay, maybe not. Stop being a creep.

"People are going to love you."

"Well let's just hope. Or else it doesn't matter. I got a lot of people right here who loves me." he chuckled again. I smiled but didn't answer him at first. I didn't know if I should.

"Uhm I was talking about you." he said awkwardly and my smile grew bigger.

"I know." I said creating a silent atmosphere.

"I love you." I then said.

"I love you more." he said.

We said our goodbyes and ended the call.

Ashton and I had been dating for a long time. I wouldn't actually call it dating, because I don't like the use of that word. It seems so casual and so wrong for people in love. Maybe it's just too modern for me.

We have been together for 3 years now. Some people find it bizarre that two teenagers can manage to be in a relationship for so long. I think it's bizarre how teenagers can manage to live without a relationship like that.

He even has his own pillow and duvet over here. I think it says alot about how we are together.

I really love him.

But I didn't get to tell him that before I went to sleep that night with a spreading pain in my head.