Fear // Ashton Irwin

Chapter 3

*Ashton's P.O.V.*

Once again we were sat at the cafeteria, me facing Fae and Michael, apparently laughing at some stupid joke I didn't get. It wasn't even that funny. Especially not when Michael was the one telling it.

"I don't know if I should cry or laugh to be honest." She stated. I honestly felt like a third wheel, with all the talking and touching Michael and Fae went through. She swatted his arm at some point, and I couldn't help but overanalyze the gesture more than I should.

"Hey Ashton, I don't know if we have the time, but can I drop off some things at my locker before class?" Her beautiful voice suddenly spoke. I raised my head, realising I had completely zoned out on our conversation.

"Sure" I got out of my mouth. I stood up beginning to walk towards the hall. I could tell she was just behind me, but she didn't say anything.

We stopped at her locker, as all the other times we had met up here. I was always leaning against her locker, but this time I stood a few meters behind her, not really focusing on what she was occupied with.

But then she turned around, and leaned against her locker. She tilted her head slightly, and looked me in the eyes, as the first time today.

"Is there anything wrong?" She asked, obviously feeling my nerve. It was so obvious. I hadn't even tried to hide it.

"No, there isn't anything." I said, not even trying to sound convincing. In all honesty, I was fine. I just couldn't help but being bothered with Fae and Michael.

I hadn't really claimed my feelings for Fae officially and not even to myself, but this was definitely a good proof. I was beginning to fall for her, and all she had to do was stand there and look at me.

Of course it wasn't a bad thing liking Fae. But I have learned that feelings isn't really something to control, and you'll just have to go with it, so what could I even do.

I'd love to be Fae's boyfriend. I could already imagine us holding hands, and kissing her lips softly. Maybe laying in the couch, being tired after a long day, and her head on my stomach. I can imagine the massive amount of texts we both will receive from each other's.

I wanted these things to happen, because honestly I wanted to have more of that, and my imagination couldn't go any further.

But what does this mean then? Should I ask her out? I still didn't knew, because I know how our friendship could be shattered by that.

But maybe I should just jump right into it. I didn't want Michael to ask her out first.

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*Fae's P.O.V.*

It looked like something bothered him. He wasn't himself anymore. And I was worried. Was it something serious?

He rubbed his neck in a nervous manner, and finally letting his gaze hit me.

"Erm, actually there is a thing... I wanted to ask you." He said nervously. I was taken back of his tone, and became utterly confused. What was up with him?

"Sure, just ask." I told him, and led him on. He could always ask me whatever he wanted.

"Yep, here it goes -" He said and inhaled quickly. "Do you want to go out with me?"

Wait.

What.

"In what kinda way?" I heard myself ask. I hadn't expected him to ask me out to be honest.

"I wanna take you out for dinner. Maybe a movie. Call it a date." He said his voice becoming more confident by his words.

I didn't know what to say. I knew I had feelings for Ashton, but what was this? Should I just say yes, and see how things play out, because I'm really bad at that. I need to have control over things. I liked our relationship this way.

"Ashton... I don't know." I got out.

"What do you mean? It's either a yes or a no." He said sternly making his way closer to me.

I decided to let it go.

"Well, to be honest. I think you should ask another girl, I bet they all will be thrilled." I said, walked up to him and gave him a quick hug.

He's look was paralysed with so much confusion. I began to walk down the hall, realising he wasn't following me and turned around.

"What are you waiting for?" I asked him. I couldn't really tell his emotion by his look, but he seemed pretty lost.

I had just said no to go on a date with him, but I don't know what else I should have done. This was how I tackled things.

Maybe he would learn that sometime. I just hoped he didn't take it too personal.

"Don't you wanna go with me on a date?" He asked hurt by action. It was never my intention to hurt him, and it broke my heart to see him like that.

"No, it's more like - why would you go with me. There's so many beautiful girls here." I said almost as an whisper.

"So you wanna go with me, even though you just said no. Fae, you're very confusing." He said rubbing his neck again.

"Ashton, I just like what we got here." I simply said, stroking his cheek. It was after I took my hand off his cheek I realised, I maybe went a bit too far again.

Ashton then grabbed my wrist and pulled me back at him again. I looked into his eyes again, and I was so close at just giving up to this angelic boy standing in front of me. How could he control me with just one look. How could I never control myself around him.

"I like this too, but I would love to be more than this. I honestly can't stop thinking about you in that way. I just can't help it. I know we're good friends, but we can at least give it a chance?" He said with pleading eyes. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach, reacting at his words. Did he really feel this way about me?

But what if I said yes - what would happen then? I've never had a boyfriend before.

"Should I get down on one knee?" He asked. I laughed laying my head on his chest. He pulled his arms tightly around my upper-body, and laughed himself.

"I'm not letting go until you go on a date with me!" He yelled earning the attention from everyone in the school hall.

"Let go of me!" I laughed, still with a playful tone in my voice.

"Is that a yes?". His voice was so close to my hear. I'm sure I was the only one in the whole world who could hear his words.

Okay. What could happen anyways?

"Okay! I'll go with you."

He shifted his grab on my to my waist, and then lifted me up. I screamed in surprise, and stumbled back as he finally sat me down.

"How did you do that..."

"Well, I have a charm that's undeniable." He said smirking at me, and ended off with a wink.