Fear // Ashton Irwin

Chapter 3

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"It'll be fun, Fae." I assured her while I took her up to the front door, of I house that blasted music out the windows and drunk people in the bushes.

She smiled like she always did. I had come to the conclusion she always just smiled, when she knew there wasn't really anything to say, or it wasn't nessecary to speak. She was such a cutie, but hard to figure out. I had tried for 2 months.

We walked into the party and my arm quickly got grabbed by someone. I looked up to see Calum, Luke and Michael surrounding me all with a beer in their hands.

"Dude, you came!"

"You need a drink."

"You need to get wasted!"

"Wait, didn't you say you would bring Fae?"

The last question caught my attention. I turned around to see nothing. She had been right beside me? Where did she go?

I looked around for the white hair of my girlfriend, but didn't see anything at first. She wasn't that tall and could easily hide inbetween the amount of teenagers in here.

"Oh, I think I lost her." I said, not putting much more thought into it. I'm sure she was okay. Nothing could really happen in here. So I just went on to the party, and danced along with all of the people. A couple of girls walked up to us, and one of them walked up to me. She started dancing closer to me, and I didn't know what to do. I knew it would be wrong, because I came her with Fae. 

I looked around without seeing the white top of hair, and I just decided to go with it. Nothing would really happen with this girl, and me and Fae weren't even that serious anyways. I hadn't asked her officially to be my girlfriend, but that didn't mean she wouldn't  think we were, because girls do that all the time.

The song shifted and the girl turned around facing away from me. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Luke giving me a glare. 

The girl laughed with her friends until I got pulled away from her. Somebody had pullen my arm away, and I was now being dragged away from the dance floor. And as I had expected it was the white braid that caught my eye. I knew she had seen my dancing with that girl. But she didn't look back at me, so I couldn't see the expression on her face.

When she had pulled me all the way outside in the garden, she turned around. Her face was sad, and she had a hurt expression in her eyes. No, what had I done.

"Fae, I can explain." I began, but she cut me off.

"Ashton, no, don't" 

Then she just took my hand and led me further down the long backyard. She stopped when we stood beside a tree. She got on her knee, so her blue dress created a ring around her. She looked up at me.

"I need your help." she said and pointed to a tiny little bird laying in the grass. "We must get it back up in the nest, I saw a huge cat around here." 

I grinned but realized she was being dead serious. I looked at her for a moment, and just wondered what was going on inside of her head. She noticed and lifted her head, carefully pulling all the strands of white hair back behind her ears.

"Is something wrong?" she asked curiously. I shook my head and smiled at her. I was just about to take the little baby bird into my hands, when she slapped them away.

"Dude, you can't use your bare hands to hold a baby bird, the mother will smell your scent, and she is going to think it's not hers." she said. Wow, she was intimidating. She handed me some leaves and I placed the leaves under the body of the little bird, and carefully brought it back to it's nest. 

"I could've done it myself, but I couldn't reach it... and then you were the only tall person I knew here." she said like it was a big deal. 

And then we stood there. She was looking at me, and I was looking at her. The truth hang in there air, but I couldn't get myself to catch it. She was so innocent, she didn't deserve her boyfriend or what I might be, to dance with another girl. Especilally not when I was the one who brought her here. 

"Listen, Fae. That girl I was dancing with... Yeah, it was stupid, and I'm stupid. I'm so sorry." I apologized. I genuinly felt sorry, because me and Fae had it great together. I had never - not even once - doubted that this girl was something. And without even trying she made me happy, and I didn't want to lose that. We hadn't even had that much time togehter yet.

And then she walked up to me, and pulled me in for a hug.

"Don't even worry, Ashton. I was the one who just left, I don't know what I was doing, I think I just got caught up in the moment. But you'll have to tell me if you're tired of me, because then..."

"I'm not tired of you, it was a mistake, okay? She didn't even dance that well." I grinned, and Fae joined. 

"No, she looked like a skank." she said with her head resting on my chest.

"I like your use of word." and then we laughed, and I felt no need to get back to the party provisionally. I had a party right here.