Fear // Ashton Irwin

Chapter 12

*Ashton's P.O.V.*

When we walked out the room we saw Michael sprawled out on the couch fast asleep. Fae dumped herself down beside him and tried to stretch her legs, but ended up just laying them ontop of Michael's body, that was taking up most of the space on the couch. Her eyelids soon closed, and I smiled to myself.

Somehow I had sobered up, and I was able to make out clear thoughts, so I made my way to the kitchen to find some water for myself.

I opened the cabin and poured some water in the glass, before bringing it to my dry lips.

I walked into the living room again and studied the view in front of me.

Michael and Fae was now laying so close and I couldn't figure out if it bothered me or not. In the start I knew that I had been really jealous of Michael and Fae, but now I knew that she was mine, and she had specifically told me that she wanted to be with me, and not Michael. So now I didn't see the point in being jealous.

I sat down beside her, and pulled out my phone. I hadn't even noticed the time, but it was already hours past midnight. It was probably a good idea to drive Fae home.

I kneeled down beside the sofa, and gently shook her shoulder.

"Hey, babe..." I whispered into her ear. Her eyelids flew open and she pulled back scared of how close I was to her face.

"Oh god, you scared me." She said laughing at the end.

"I think it's time to go home." I smiled. I pulled a strand behind her ear, and suddenly I couldn't help but inch even closer to her.

I pulled a hand out to stroke her soft hair, and she pulled our heads together. Our foreheads met and her nose lightly brushed mine. I couldn't help but give her a quick kiss on her lips.

I laid my hands on her hips and pulled her up from the sofa. She she put her arms around me, and snaked her legs around my waist. Her tired head fell on my shoulder, and I instantly grabbed her tighter to prevent her from falling down.

I made my way to the front door with Fae clutched around my body, and slowly pulled the door open. The air was cool on my skin, and I could feel Fae's skin transform into goosebumps. My hands was around the bare skin on her thighs, and I could feel her body cuddle into my grab even more. Suddenly her head was raised, and she looked around for a second before whispering something in my ear.

"We could always go to your house..." Her voice sounded and I froze in the middle of Maia's frontyard.

"Erm... Don't you think your parents want you home?" I asked my voice shaking a bit. I could see her point though. My house was just beside Maia's, and I could literally see my room through one of the windows.

"They'll be fine, I just don't wanna go home now..." She whispered into my ear, and that was it. I immdiatly changed my direction towards my house.

I unlocked the door and literally flew up the stairs before neither my mom and dad could barge into the room, and see me bringing a girl to my room. Of course they would know it would be Fae, because I may or may not have been rambling about her the last two months.

When I opened the door to my room, we were greeted by the dark. I could see the shadow of the bed, and I carefully went over to place Fae on it. I wasn't going to turn on the light in here, but I wasn't going to walk around in pitch black darkness, so I decided to turn on the light in the bathroom, and let the light stream inside the room.

I opened my closet and found the sweatpants I used to wear in bed, and laid them on the desk.

I could hear something move behind me, so I turned around to see Fae on her feet looking extremely tired. Her blue dress was a bit shorter than the dresses she normally wore to school, and I could see a bit more of her thigh than I was supposed to. She still looked so beautiful, I couldn't take my eyes of her.

"Please get in some more comfortable clothes." I said and handed her my sweatpants and a t-shirt that was too small for me.

She smiled thankfully at me, and without further hesitation she pulled the pants up her legs. We were still standing facing each other, when she pulled her dress over her head, so she was left in nothing but a white bra. I quickly turned around mumbling a hushed sorry. I could hear her giggle, but I just stayed with my back facing her, not risking to see anything I wasn't allowed to.

"It's okay, Ashton... You're my boyfriend." She said, and I could hear her tone change when the last word left her mouth.

She placed her hand on my shoulder, and gently turned me around so I was facing her again. Her eyes was sparkling in the dark, and her hands were attached to mine. She pulled me towards her. She had already put on my shirt, but I still kept my eyes to hers. Of course she noticed.

"You literally just asked me thirty minutes ago if you could touch my boobs, and now you won't even look at them?" She asked, mumbling through some of the words probably because she was way to tired for a perfect pronunciation.

"It's not like that, but... You're in my room, in my clothes now and... Ugh, fuck it's just hot." I confessed, finally speaking up my mind. It was true. She looked hot basically all the time, but now she was in my clothes, and it couldn't help but being turned on.

She didn't say anything, until she took my hand and let my fingertips go under my shirt she was wearing. Her hand guided mine further up, until my fingertips came in contact with the lace of her bra. My breath hitched, and I could feel myself pull away from her. Oh god, I wanted this, but... I don't even know, I was nervous.

"I am only yours." She whisperes, and I just melt by her words. Her hand left mine and went to my hair and grabbed it. I quickly pulled her in for an intimate kiss. My hand was still under her shirt, not having a problem exploring everything on the soft cotton anymore.

The kiss eventually grew deeper, and our tongues explored each other's mouth while my hands where still running along the lace of her bra.

It was Fae who broke the kiss. She bumped into me, and laid her head on my chest while I squeezed her tighter in my arms. This was perfect.

Here I was standing with the most perfect girl in the world, and the best thing about it was that she was mine.

Only a few hours earlier we had literally been fighting outside of her house about the stupidest thing ever, and I had never expected us to be in my room right now.

"Should I go for the floor?" I asked, beginning to sway back and forth with our bodies. She shook her head.

"No, can't we share the bed? It's okay by me." She said, and sat down on the bed.

I smiled and lifted the covers up, so we could both creep down under them. Fae had already sprawled herself out on the bed, and soon enough she was asleep. Her breathing was slowing down when I pulled her closer to me. I laid my hands on her waist, and pulled her into my chest.

Honestly I just wanted her as close as I could.

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