Fear // Ashton Irwin

Chapter 2

*Ashton's P.O.V.*

In the next month that passed, I actually grew to like going to school. Or maybe it wasn't school, but just geography and lunch break.

Fae had become an extension of mine and Michael's group. She always sat with us at lunch, and I always hopped in my seat in geography just in front of her.

We would also sit out in the school garden, and she would count the colours of flowers the garden had, and then she would continue to count the colours the passing students had. It wasn't like with skin color, but she just told me which colour she thought represented them, or they just wore often. She claimed that a lot of the students had a very dark black. I listened in amusement, knowing that she wasn't completely serious, but was just joking around.

Another day we sat at the library. I was trying to figure out an essay I've got in English literature, and Fae silently sat with a concentrated gaze with her math work. She said that she was good at math, but didn't see the point of it all. She gave me the long speech, and I just sat back and listened.

"Why does everything has to be counted in numbers? We always count in money, days and also each other. We separate ourselves in group by a number of class, instead of looking at our personalities. We should explain ourselves in words, because they are way more flexible."

And that's how I ended up doing Fae's math, while she worked on my essay. We were a great team.

Team as in just friends. The little time me and Fae have had together, wasn't enough for me to figure her out. She wasn't like a closed book, but she was very bipolar, if I can say that.

She could be the sweetest girl in the world, caring about each little atom in the whole world. The next minute she could be swearing, ranting about the everyday problems she had. But she was never angry, or never gave out a negative vibe for some sort.

But I really did feel like, it was very important to figure her out. Because I thought that I only knew her on the surface, and I couldn't live with that.

Even though me and Fae was just friends, there was always this tension between us, and I could catch her staring at me for minutes, and she would catch me looking at her too. But she was beautiful, I couldn't help it. She was probably only staring at me because I got something in my teeth.

She hadn't told me this directly, but I also knew that I was one of her only friends. And I got the feeling she hadn't had one for a long time. Which I couldn't understand. I know there's people who doesn't have any friends, but they're definitely not fine with it, and they sure as well want to find some. But Fae didn't seem to mind. At all.

That was what I was scared of. What if I suddenly became to clingy, or just made her uncomfortable? I didn't want to ruin our friendship, because it honestly gave me a lot of joy and happiness.

She still didn't sit beside me at lunch. Even though she was speaking more to me than Michael. Why couldn't she just move over to me, instead of sitting all over there with him?

Yeah, that held me awake most of one of the following nights.

What if she liked Michael? He was the one she had come up to at first. She probably thought he was very attractive. Wait, why did this bother me? We weren't together.

At least not yet.

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*Fae's P.O.V.*

When me and Ashton sat at the bench in the school garden, I couldn't help but slide my hand over his, or stroke his knee on purpose, when he said something. I don't know why, I just really needed to touch him, and couldn't hold myself back.

I know. I'm weird.

We stood beside my locker the same day, and was in a heavy argument.

"How can you not like spaghetti? It's the best food you can ever eat!" Ashton claimed, leaning up against the door of the locker.

"I just think it's dry, how could I ever get it down my throat." I laughed.

He shook his head. And then he smirked.

"What's not too dry to get down your throat?"

And we both broke out laughing.

"Why did that sound so wrong. Oh my god, Ashton. Don't do that again." I told him, but the clock suddenly interrupted me. The school day was off.

I looked up at Ashton. His face didn't really tell me anything, but it was still just as gorgeous as before.

"Well, this must be goodbye then." He said looking around, maybe not sure what to say.

He suddenly pulled me in for a hug, taking me by surprise. I laid my his shoulder, also putting my arms around him. It was nice having him this close.

After what seemed like seconds, he pulled away, with a big smile on his smile, showing off his dimples.

Before I knew it, I got on my toes and placed a kiss on his cheek. My eyes widened at my sudden action, and his did too.

I turned around promptly and walked out of the school. I only turned around once to wave at him, but I only saw him looking all puzzled with a happy smile on his face.

Maybe we were just friends, but my feelings for him weren't only just friendly.

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*Author's note*

Yes yes here we go, I think there's something starting off very soon.

this was really just a filler I think, but it's still very important for the fundament of Fae and Ashton's relationship so yeah

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