Fear // Ashton Irwin

Chapter 10 | ~

as you can see this chapter has a ~ in the title which means now we are going back to present time, which would be around 3 years after the past chapters you have just read, and it's just for this chapter we continue Part 1.

hope everyone gets this.

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*Ashton's P.O.V.*

Fae is in the hospital. My girlfriend is in the hospital.
We had just gotten in the car, and we were now heading for the airport. Even though this tour hadn't even started, I secretly wanted it to end quickly. And I hated myself for thinking that.

And the worst part about hat was that the other boys knew that I felt that way. Obliviously.

They were all looking at me, maybe not directly, but I could feel their eyes on me. I knew they were sad too. Fae was also their friend.

After we all got settled in the car, I pulled my headphones out and put my phone on shuffle. Which was a mistake.

Of course the song that came on was 'Beside You'.

She sleeps alone.
My heart wants to come home.
I wish I was, I wish I was beside you.

I was about to roll down the window, and just threw my phone away for playing that freaking song right now. Every single word could be compared to me and Fae now.

I still let out a big sigh and put my head in my hands. It was so frustrating. Mostly because I couldn't control my emotions. The first minute I was sobbing on someone's shoulder and the next I could be throwing around with tables and chairs.

And I just missed Fae. I wish that I could've said a properly goodbye to her.

And then suddenly I got an idea.

All I wanted was closure. I wanted to go on tour and think things were settled. At least for now.

I could feel my hands around my red bandana. I grabbed it tightly.

"Turn the car around." I spoke. The driver looked at me like a was crazy. The other boys too. I made eye contact with Luke, and I could see he immediately understood it was important.

"Turn around to the hospital." He said louder than me. The driver shook his head, but he still turned around and luckily the hospital were pretty close, so we arrived a few minutes later.

I jumped out of the car, and I wasn't sure the boys were following me, but on the other side I didn't really want them to.

I didn't bother to check in at the hospital, and just ran past the desk, while the lady was occupied with some paper work.

I ran down the hall until I found her room again. There wasn't anyone outside of the room, and there were no one inside. So I pushed the door open, making sure nobody saw me.

And she was still laying there. Of course I was hoping she had gotten up, and that she was walking around looking for people. I cringed at the thought of her waking up, and then I wouldn't be there.

But she was in a deep sleep.

I walked closer to her bed, and took in all her features. Her pretty face, with her long eyelashes, and her lips which wasn't as colourful as they used to be.

I didn't sit down at the chair beside the bed, because I knew I wouldn't get up again.

"It's me..." I whispered to her.

I pulled my hands to the back of head, and slowly tied the bandana up. It fell into my hands, and I looked at it for a second.

It must bring luck, it always had.

I carefully took her hand, earning no reaction for her this time.

I sighed and bit my lip.

"I love you so much, Fae. You weren't born to die."

I took my red bandana, and tied it around her wrist. It looked bright on her pale skin. I kissed the tips of her fingers.

"Now I'll be here with you."

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*Author's note*

well damn

i know the ~ meant "flashback" in the last part, but in this part which is Part 2 it'll mean pretty much the opposite. And this "back to present time" will maybe happen for each 10th chapter or something I'll have to figure that out lol.

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