Behind The Scenes: Book Two || Jihope

VIII: Frustration

Hoseok has always been Jimin's shoulder to cry on. Whenever Jiminie found himself in trouble, he would run to Hobi, unlike the other members who would usually seek help from Jimin himself. J Hope loved that Jimin trusted him but he was now confused on why the younger had kept silent about his deepest concerns for so long. As he held a crying Jimin in his arms, Hoseok started to feel guilty. He is probably the one who spends the most time with Jimin yet he had not been able to notice that the younger had been struggling so badly. This was probably why Jimin had felt the need to go to a friend outside of the band. Because he felt like no one was paying him attention, even when J Hope could never take his eyes away from him.

"Up! up!" Hobi said making Jimin smile. "No, hyung! We are too grown up for that" Chimchim answered wiping the tears from his left eye. "Cmon, Jiminie. Up! up!" Hoseok repeated drying the tears from his dongsaeng's eyes with his thumb. Jimin chuckled and quickly took a little jump landing into Hoseok's arms with both his arms and legs set around the older's body. Hobi was quick to hug the younger providing stability as Jimin tried to adjust his koala position. They hadn't done this in years. Probably since 2013. Being the last member to join the BTS line up, Jimin had had to learn their choreos and pick up their style really fast. At times, Chimchim would rehearse from eighteen to twenty hours a day. It was really exhausting for him and when he got back to the dorm, he would be completely drained of energy.

At the time, Hoseok was not sure if what he felt for Jimin was love, but he did know that he cared a lot for their newest member and so seeing him in a bad state never made Hobi happy. That's why he would often carry Jimin around like a koala. Either towards the living room to rest or to the kitchen to have a meal, the two were pretty much inseperable. Hoseok loved it! Not only did it bring him and Jimin closer, it also helped the younger get through his really busy schedules.

Hoseok felt like should be loving it now as well, but as he carried Jimin in his arms towards their bedroom, he was more concerned than happy. He didn't like to see Jimin in tears. He hated it, actually. If he could, he would take all of Jimin's struggles for him, he wouldn't mind to take any sort of pain as long as his beloved didn't hurt. He wished he could take it all. Heaven knew that would take it, no matter how it hard it was. But unfortunately, he couldn't.

The clock read 5:45am when they entered their shared room. Hobi gently placed his koala Jimin on his bed, relieved to see that the tears had stopped flowing. He covered Jimin with the purple duvet of his bed and kissed the younger's forehead. He adviced him to fall asleep because their day schedule would be recording and they all knew exactly how hard that was. He turned off the lights and stroked Jimin's hair before attempting to return his own bed. Jimin however, had other plans. He pulled Hoseok by his pajama shirt and pulled him down to sit next to him. "Please don't leave me" the younger requested with a pout that melted Hoseok's heart. How was he supossed to move on when he was so weak to Jimin's charms? Hoseok gave Jimin's hair a few strokes, trying to resist giving up to the younger's request. "I'll stay here until you fall asleep" he said, only making Jimin's pout grow bigger.

"Why?!" The younger asked tenderly. "Don't you want to be my side, hyung?" he asked looking into Hobi's eyes. Jimin now knew that his hyung's eyes reflected nothing but love, so why was he rejecting him? Was it becuase he had heard his confession? No, Hoseok didn't know that. So was it that probably he didn't like him anymore? Yeah, that was a more realistic possibility. "You should be comfortable to sleep. I'll be right next to you in my bed if you need me" Hobi replied calmly, not stopping his hand from gently tangling in the younger's silky hair. "Fine!" Jimin answered, turning around to face the wall. Hobi chuckled and kept caressing his dongsaeng's head until he fell asleep. It was around six o' clock. How was he supossed to be awake by eight? This was going to be a very long day. He got on his bed and covered up with the duvet, determined to get at least get one more hour of sleep.