Frozen Love (A Castle Fanfiction)

To the Future

See? I just can't stop

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I'd asked Castle to go in early this morning like usual. I didn't want anyone to think anything was odd if Rick and I walked in together. In an effort to hide the bump we'd just discovered yesterday, I wore a jacket that pretty much gave me coverage as long as my arms weren't shooting up into the air. Everything around me seemed to me moving all to fast, however. The moment I'd walked through the doors downstairs memories had flooded back. Most of them were happy. Most didn't bother me. But the memory of my mother's muder and the case I'd worked for ages now plowed into me and all I wanted to do was freeze. I thought about getting out my phone and having Rick come down and just talk to me so that this didn't feel quite so over whelming, but I knew better. Don't draw attention to the relationship, I told myself, people will start to realize that it's his baby. They'll start to realize you're together. Don't you dare text him. I listened to my cautioning subconscious and boarded the elevator.

While I was alone and I could, I looked down at my stomach and spoke to the baby. "Get ready, kiddo. This is going to be a bumpy ride." Nothing happened, but I calmed myself down a little. I wasn't calm enough, however, and I took out my mother's ring that I kept on a chain and held it in my hands. For some reason, having this piece of her with me actually helped me overcome the thoughts of her death.

The doors opened to a room where every cop hurried about. No one really even noticed as I stepped off the elevator, but I did. I looked around trying to find my lover and my friends, but they didn't seem to be anywhere in sight. I let the ring spin on the chain and looked down at it before covering it and looking back up. I took one more step and someone whispered, "Beckett's back." This statement began to be tossed around more openly and before I knew it the men and women around me had started to clap. I did my best to walk only a few steps, but find the eyes of everyone who made an effort. I thanked them all and within five second, this part of my life was over and I was back at my desk.

There, I dropped my bag beside me and pulled out the files I needed to give to my Captain. Looking into Montgomery's old office made my heart ache in a way I hadn't felt in a while, but what struck me even more suddenly was that the office was still empty. I'd been told they selected a new Captain. According to Lanie who sourced Esposito she was to start at work yesterday. I expected to come in and find her sitting at the desk having rearranged what furnature she could move and placed pictures here and there of her family. Considering she was transfering in from Internal Affairs, I figured she would be strict and cold and pretty much hate cops.

When I pulled out the only new thing I was bringing to work, a sonogram photo stuck inside a field manual, I was completely ready to hear what the boys had to say about my case, but they weren't there. They hadn't been expecting me until next week and Castle wasn't expecting me until noon, so I could see why they weren't here, but I was really anxious to know what was happening since, again, Castle had refused to tell me when we were at home.

I picked up the phone, dialed their numbers and Ryan was the first to answer, "Hey Beckett."

"Hey, where are you guys?"

I wasn't mad. I wasn't being pushy. I wasn't being rude. So why he lied and said, "We're at the precinct," is beyond me.

Not even bothering to look around, I corrected, "No you're not. I'm at the precinct. Where are you?" My suspicions were suddenly awakened as I listened to him talk with someone else. He tried to cover the speaker, but I could still hear the undefined mummbles. "Ryan, I can hear you, you know?"

The mutters stopped. He came on and said, "We're at a crime scene. We caught a case."

"Alright, where at? I'll meet you there as soon as I can." This caused more discussion from the boys as they argued back and forth. This time I could make out who was speaking and Castle wasn't in the mix. They continued on for a moment and I asked, "Ryan, everything alright?"