Jerrie's Adoption Story

Chapter 42

Jade's POV

I hardly got any sleep last night, I got probably three or four hours of sleep. But the good thing about that is, I'm used to running on little to no sleep, because it's required a lot of times in my job field. But the thing is, we've not really been working and I actually get sleep now. So let's just hope I'm able to function today.

I grab my phone and go into the bathroom that's in my room. I do my morning routine and feel myself gradually wake up. I walk downstairs to see the girls already up, "Hey Jadey, we made breakfast" Leigh says cheerfully. I simply nod and join them on the couch, "Jade... you should eat" Jess says quietly. "I will later" I mumbled. 'You can't eat! You'll ruin your body too with all the fat you'll be adding. Idiot!' Well I'm not eating later, not that I was actually going to anyway but... Now I'm definitely not.

I take a nervous glance at the two and see them both wearing a disappointed face... now I feel bad! "Babe..." Leigh trails off. I avoid their gaze and turn to my phone, I see many text from Perrie. Big paragraphs, she's so sweet, she decided against calling because she knew I was sleeping, so she wrote me multiple messages. Let's take a look at a few:

Pez♥️: Baby, I know you're mad, and I'm really sorry. I can just hope that you still want to be with me despite the fact I'll be going to see him. I'm sorry, but I am going. Please don't let your attitude towards me right now effect what happen tomorrow, or just your parenting towards Zoey at all. She loves you to death, and she'd be devastated if you were cold towards her. I'm not saying you'll let that happen, but I know you, and when you're upset you can say things to anybody and make them feel a certain way. I hope you know I do love you.

Pez♥️: I know you're sleeping, but I have to let you know just how important you are because you're having a hard time right now. I know you're not in the best situation, and I'm partly to blame, I'm sorry. But you must know, you're important. Baby please don't do anything to yourself, I'm not there and the girls are sleeping. Nobody will be there to hold you while you cry and say sorry, I would hate myself forever if something happened to you and I wasn't there to stop it. We aren't on the best of terms right now, and there's still craziness from both sides of the fight, I'm not over it, by all means I'm not, but you're more important to me than the fight. So as much as I want to be mad at you right now and tell you why I'm right, instead I'll tell you I love you.

Pez♥️: Well it's official, I can't sleep without you. It's so strange to not have you here, with your head on my chest as I hold you close. I don't like the new weight that's found it's way to my chest, my chest is weighted down from worry tonight. Worried about you, and if you're safe, if you're alright. Have you eaten? Did you cut? I'm worried about Zoey, how do we know they're feeding her? Has she been up crying like she used to? I miss the weight you provide much more than the weight I have tonight. I wish you were here but I know you're safe with the girls, and you need some space. I love you Jade.

Pez♥️: Jade Amelia Thirlwall, you are the love of my life. You make me smile with the slightest of things. You dance around with your crazy dance and I feel joy, seeing you act wild because I know you enjoy it. When you pout like a child because I make you eat your vegetables, makes me forget all the horrible things that you went through, and reminds me of your inner child, that's absolutely adorable. When you run into the cinema room, despite me telling you to walk, because you're so excited to watch that Disney movie we've seen hundreds of times. When we're having an intimate moment but get interrupted, as always, and she mutter curses under your breath "because it's just not happened yet!" We'll get to it at some point babe😉. I love it when I come home to see you and Zoey sleeping on the couch with some cartoon playing in the background, she lays on top of you while you make sure she won't fall by wrapping your arms around her tightly. Jade, I want to marry you. I love you.