Damsels 01: Creating You (#MoonStarAwards 2018-2019 And #WattisAwardPrtcpnt2018)

06: Heard

Eryl Jasmine Valencia

“Why are you mad?” seryosong tanong ni J.

Is he serious? Talaga? Tinatanong talaga niya iyan? After what he did to me? Really. I'm speechless.

“Are you mad because of Joan?” Medyo tumaas ang boses niya.

“Why? Wala na ba akong karapatang magalit kase niloko mo ko? You fooled me. Why? Kase trip-trip lang?” Kalmado ko pa rin siyang hinaharap ngayon.

“Why don't you hear me out first?” I already give him the chance but he misses it.

“I already gave you the chance didn't I? I loved her. I was loving her but then she crumbles like a fake stone into dust. ” I stated. Calmly.

“I just did that because of you. I thought I was never enough as your bestfriend what can fulfill a man kung hindi isang babae tama? That is why I made Joan. I made Joan because you can't love me as you did to Joan.” mukhang naluluha na si J.

He loves me? That's absurd! Totally.

“And you think na trip-trip lang? No! Eryl, I never intended such thing na pagtripan ka at ang nararamdaman mo. I love you and I want to say sorry.” and there his tears overflowing on his eyes.

“You can't love me like a man cause I am a man too.” Mariin kong sambit na kinalubha ng iyak niya.

“That is the reason why! Why I did that cause you will not give me a chance like what you did for Joan.” Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko at hinawakan ang sapatos ko.

“C-can you forgive me for what I did and we will go back on how close our friendship?” He asked me like a million dollar worth.

“Sorry. Di ko pagkakait ang pagpapatawad bigyan m-mo siguro ako ng oras para mag-isip. Bigyan mo ko ng oras pero ang sigurado ay hindi masusuklian ang kasinungalingan na inilapat mo.” I said in my monotone. I really can't treat him as my princess cause he is a prince also. I am not stereotyping. I am just being myself. I respect their choice of sex but I can't be with them.

For me it is enough to respect them. I may hurt him this time but I was hurt too. I maybe broke his heart but I'm sure he can find another one who will love him with his natural ways.

I just hope Joan will rest in peace. She is a branch of tree that should resting in his heart.

Joan is a dangerous persona. Joan is a tool that J used. 

“Forget Joan and start a new you. Forget me, don't fall for me. Move on and go. ” pagkasabi ko sa kanya non ay tumayo siya at pinunasan ang mga luha niya.

“I wish I could do that.” suminghot pa siya para ata di tumulo ang sipon buhat ng kakaiyak.

“I am hoping you would.” I smiled at my friend. I just hope my words are heard and not fallen into deaf ears.

Pinaandar ko na ang mio ko para agad ng makauwi. Hindi ko magawang ngumiti sa natuklasan ko kay J. I never asked when it started but I know he can surpass his feelings for me.

I am able to talk again. Medyo gumaan ang nasa loob ko dahil sa natuklasan ko. I can now talk but I'm a bit mad but I can't blame him. I understand what he was trying to explain. It was love can be heard but can't absorb.

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“I just heard you talk! I already heard your actual voice! Congratulation!” after a heart opening gay love confession. Irene surprise me with a cake.

“Wondering why I have this cake? Oh! Cause I already heard you! I am so happy for you!” still happy. Nababasa niya pa rin ang nasa isip ko.

“Did J already confess his thing to you? He was so nervous when he was still in the classroom. Akala ko magkakaboxing eh. I'm glad not brotha!” She's talking in a loud voice. Can't she lower it. Like super low?

“Why don't you talk to me right now? Are you still using your Read-my-mind thing?” Inilapag niya ang cake sa table na nandoon din yung kahon. Parang kinahon niya lang ulit.

“I am sure yo---” umubo siya at tinakpan ang bibig niya.

“Sorry.” Umubo ulit siya at tumakbo papuntang kwarto.

Kinuha ko muna yung cake at itinali ulit ang puting ribbon nito at ipinasok sa ref sa kusina kumuha ako ng sticky note sa ref at nagsulat tsaka idinikit ito sa pintuan ng kwarto niya.

I just hope she can see what I did.

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“Kuya paabot nung La la's Notes na libro.” kinuha ko yung may cover na kulay green.

“Ikaw yung pinaabot ko nung libro na "Star and Marco" di'ba? ” tanong ng babaeng kulay orange na ang buhok.

“Kahapon yun kung di ako nagkakamali!” she giggled at ngumiti na parang nakita niya ang kanyang long-lost brother.

“I was wondering why you didn't say something when I thanked you yesterday. Manners please!” malakas ang boses niya parang may mic. 

I didn't recognize her because she change her hair color from Pink to Orange. Where is she up to? Hair color is life?

“Di ka ba marunong magsalita? Kanina ka pa walang imik ah. Oh my Geee! Why didn't you tell me earlier?” nagh-hysterical niyang tanong sa akin. Ano bang ibig niyang sabihin sa wala akong sinabi sa kanya?

“Oh my! I am so so so so sorry. Did I offend you? Di ko kasi alam. Di ko agad na napansin agad! Bakit ba di ka man lanv nag sign language agad! Marunong naman ako. My friend has a sibling like your condition but she's too young but you can make friends with her!” ang ingay talaga niya natatakot ako baka mabawal siya at ma-ban, dito sa City Library.

“Shhh! Aren't you aware that you are in the CL? ” Its Creyson. The book worm na nauuna pang dumating sa akin. Sa ibang department siya ng school and he really wants silence.

“I'm so sorry.” Sabi nitong babae saka nag peace sign.

“I am Heliza Buenavista and you are? Well fell free to sign language.” she giggled awkwardly.

“I am Eryl Valencia and I am finally close normal.” I smiled at Heliza.