ｒｅｃｋｌｅｓｓ♛; d.l

eighteen

•derek•

I didn't want all of this to happen,

I love her way too much to lose her.

This is all my fault.

I should've just waited and why her best friend out of all people?

I could see the tears in her eyes and I could tell she had been screaming since her voice was raspy.

I honestly felt like a piece of shit.

"Derek are you fucking serious? What the hell were you thinking getting a girl pregnant?!" My dad yelled.

"Dad.." I choked out.

"That's all you have to say?! Dad?! Derek I can't fucking help you! You have to figure this out on your own. Besides you have a child on the way," My dad said.

Tears slipped out of my eyes and into the palms of my hand,

"Dad I'm sorry. I didn't actually think I got her pregnant! And no I can't figure this out my own," I sobbed.

"Why were you even having sex in the first place?" he asked.

"I was a little upset that Ava and I weren't doing it and so guess I got a little frustrated and went after Jess. Jess started to throw herself at me and force herself upon me," I sniffled.

"Sex should not be your priority at 16! Derek because of all of this you lost one good girl that could've been your wife! She was an amazing girl why the hell would you fuck something like this up?!" my dad yelled.

•ava•

I sat in Delaney's room crying again,

"Jessica's parents are gonna make her take a DNA test before the baby is born so they can figure out who the father is," Delaney said.

"Well that's nice for that slut. I don't wanna see either of them right now. And Derek can't even open up his mouth to apologize," I sniffled.

She stroked my hair and hugged me as I sobbed,

"It's gonna be okay. Derek is a piece of shit for that. Also Jessica's parents wanted me to let you know that they've decided that it's best for her to get a fresh start so they're going to be moving and Jessica will be home schooled so she can take care of the baby as well," Delaney said.

"I know he is and I want her far away," I said with a raspy voice.

"It just sucks so much because I love Derek a lot. I don't know why he'd do something like that," I added.

"I'm really sorry. There are better guys out there, I promise," Delaney mumbled.

"I don't want a better guy. I want Derek because I love him and he know me more than anyone else does. I don't know why but there's something that keeps drawing me back to him," I explained.

"It's just.. There's something telling me not to leave him. I'm angry at what he did but I don't know," I mumbled.

A knock interrupted our conversation,

"Hey how are you feeling?" Derek's mom asked closing the door behind her.

I started to cry and sniffle just thinking about him,

She came over and hugged me,

"Baby I'm really sorry. His dad is talking to him right now. Trust me, I'm angry at him as well. But you have every right to leave him if you want and we wouldn't be upset," his mom said.

"I'm not gonna leave him. If anything Mrs. Luh, I'm in love with your son,"