ｒｅｃｋｌｅｓｓ♛; d.l

nineteen

~a few days later~

•derek•

So now that my life is a living hell and my family hates me, I have no friends and I lose my girlfriend, I really see no point in living.

My dad won't even be in the same room as me,

My sister gives me dirty looks and won't talk to me.

As for my mom, she can't even look at me.

I put my hoodie on and started to walk to school.

I cant even walk through the hallways without people making dirty remarks and and comments about me.

I've even noticed my teachers have changed their attitudes towards me.

Jessica is officially gone,

Her parents found out the baby wasn't mine a few days ago but they've still decided to go ahead and move.

They're in Nevada staying with her grandparents until they buy a house there.

And last but not least, Ava.

Her parents won't let me talk to her or be near her.

I am still deeply in love with her and that's just surprising coming from me, a person who rarely shows their feeling and emotions.

I was heading to class with her right now and this was gonna be really hard.

I sat in the back of the classroom, waiting for her to come in but as the bell rang, she didn't come in.

Did she get a schedule change?

Is she still not coming to school?

The classroom was dead silent as my teacher walked in,

I copied down my notes on the bored.

"Um Derek, you need to go down to the office. Your family is waiting for you with a message," my teacher mumbled in my ear.

I grabbed my backpack and went down to the office,

Delaney's eyes were bloodshot red and my mom was crying into my dad's shirt.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

Delaney started to sob as my dad had tears running down his eyes.

"You guys are scaring me now. What's wrong?" I asked getting worried.

"I'm so sorry, Derek," My dad mumbled.

"Dad, what's going on?" I started to panic.

"How do we tell you this?" my mom choked out.

"Tell me what?" I asked.

"Oh baby I'm really sorry," my mom cried.

"Mom, please tell me what happened," I said.

"She's gone, honey," she sobbed.

"What do you mean she's gone? Whose gone?" I begged.

"Ava. I'm really sorry but she tried to kill herself and she's in really bad condition," Delaney cried.

"No she can't be. This is a sick joke," I started to cry.

"No honey, it's not a joke. She's at the hospital and they said if she makes it it'll be a miracle," My dad said.

My knees got really weak as the lump in my throat grew.

I felt my salty tears stream down my face, and down my jawline.

I fell to my knees and started to sob and scream,

"No! She can't be!" I sobbed.

"Baby I'm-" my mom started.

"We have to go to the hospital!" I screamed and cried.

"We can go see her when she's stable and you're calm," My dad said.

My breathing got heavy as I heard my conscience messing with my head,

It's all your fault.

You did this.

How are you ever gonna live with yourself ?

"Mom please we need to go now! You have no idea how I feel," I begged.

"You're right. I don't. But we can't go right now!" my mom sternly warned.

"We have to! The love of my life is laying is laying on her possible death bed because of me and I didn't even get the chance to talk to her! I'm in love with this girl and you have no idea how much I love her. My love for her is unconditional," I sobbed.

My parents were silent for a few minutes,

"Go get in the car." My dad ordered.