Dying to Live

Dying to Live (BoyXBoy)

HELLOOO!! I just wanted to warn you that this is a sequel..of a sequel. HOWEVER! You really don't need to read the other two stories first. But If you want I'll put the link to the first one on the side. 

Hope you like it~

P.S. This is a boyXboy story. Don't like, don't read ^^ 

Prologue

I stare at myself in the mirror. I've never really noticed how tiny I am. I feel like I'm being drowned by my clothes. I pout and I puff out my chest. Even now I'm painfully tiny.

"John what are you doing?"

I blush and look to my bedroom door. "I was-nothing." My eyes fall to the floor and I sigh. I'll never look my age.

"You okay?" Noah walks to me and places his hand on my arm, giving it a soft squeeze. 

"Yeah," no, "I'm perfectly fine." How can I be fine when the person I love is in love with someone else?

"That's good." Noah smiles sweetly at me. "Now I'm going out with Damien so if anyone asks, tell them I'm here."

Now before you go thinking Noah is my brother, he isn't. Well he considers us brothers, but really we're two people at the same orphanage who happen to be close. I don't see him as a brother.

I wave goodbye as he sneaks out the window to go see his boyfriend. Yeah that's right he's gay too. Some people would be bothered by that but then again some people are stupid.

People should be able to love who they want.

I sit on my bed and pull the thin blanket around me. Tears form in my eyes. I fall over and curl into a ball. It's times like these when I'm glad I only share a room with Noah. Every time he goes off with Damien I cry. Yes I'm happy he's happy but it hurts knowing the one you want thinks of you as a brother. That's right the one I love is Noah.

Before Damien there was another boy, Sam. Noah was crazy for him. Sam was small, like me, so I figured Noah would want someone smaller than him again. But no, he picked someone bigger than him.

Ever since I met Damien I'd be trying my hardest to make myself bigger. I figured maybe if I looked more like him Noah would love me back. But sadly it hasn't been working and I'm still tiny.

"John!" Demi comes running into the room. "Why are you crying again?" She tilts her head to the side like a puppy.

"I'm not feeling good Demi." I tell the young girl.

"Will a hug help you get better?" Before I can answer she climbs into my bed and hugs me the best she can.

"Thanks," I smile at her.

Next to Noah, Demi is my favorite person here. At the ripe age of six she always knows how to cheer me up. I'd be happy if she'd consider me her big brother. She needs someone good to look up to. I'm as innocent and good as they come. And no I'm not just saying that.

"You're welcome!" She chimes hugging me tighter. "Will you take me to the park tomorrow?"

"Of course." I grin. I'd do anything Demi asked. She's been through so much I want to make her life as wonderful as I can. She deserves it.

"Yay!" she hugs me once more before skipping out of the room. I hear her rush back in. "Goodnight John!"

"Goodnight Demi." I cuddle into the bed and close my eyes.

Little did I know tomorrow would change my life forever. As clichéd as that sounds it's true. Who knew my whole life would be effected by taking a six year old to the park.

And yes I am aware of how short this is. Don't worry the rest of the chapters will be much longer ^^