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Lance Ian Latriz Point of View.
Everything happened in my life was a shit! Our company then Tony. My whole world fall down when Tony leave me. I cried all night and all my sleepless nights always kills me inside. Sobra ko syang minahal, na kahit na ibigay ko na yung lahat ko parang nagkulang pa din ako. Hindi ko sya masyadong nabigyan ng atensyon. Kahit anong pilit kong bumawi alam kong kulang pa din.
Shes so sweet na kahit na hindi ko nabibigay yung atensyon at buong oras ko sa kanya, she always understand me. She always makes me happy, and pain relieve. Sobrang apektado ako sa problema ng pamilya ko but shes always there for me. She always got my back. I know inside her, napapagod na sya but she still ease it.
I thought everything was fine. I feel welcome to her squad with that Charmaine and Angela but Charmaine, I hate her! Akala ko mabait at maayos syang babae. Akala ko buo yung suporta nya samin ni Tony but all of that is fake! She ruined everything! Sya yung dahilan kung bakit ako iniwan ni Tony. And im impress yet so much in pain on Tony for choosing her friends over me. Na ayaw nyang masira sila dahil lang sakin.
Hinding hindi ko mapapatawad si Charmaine. She looks a destroyer whenever i saw her. Nagiinit yung dugo ko pag nakikita ko sya pero wala akong choice. Hindi pwedeng hindi ko sya makikita. Lalo na ngayon, we are going to be a couples soon. And it sucks! Bakit sa kanya pa? Bakit ginamit nya pa yung company namin para lang mapasa kanya ako. Is she that desperate para gawin nya lahat para lang mapalapit ako sa kanya? Fvck her! Rude if rude! Pero sobra yung galit ko sa kanya!
I dont care if bumagsak yung company namin wag ko lang sya pakasalan pero its for my mom. I will do everything for her! Kaya pumayag ako sa plinano ni Charmaine na arrange marriage nayan! All of the pains and shits happen to my life was because of her!
"Hey Lance! Ano bang problema mo?!" My dad angrily shout at me. Kagagaling lang namin sa bahay nila Charmaine to talk things over about the marriage.
"What did he do honey?" pagtatanggol naman sakin ng mom ko.
"I told him to be showy! To always impress the Cruz's but he keep on being unreadable. Na parang walang pakialam! Paano magagain yung trust nila if ganyan ang ginagawa ni Lance?! Sometimes, think of the Company Lance!" baling naman nya sakin.
"Minsan ba tinanong nyo sakin kung gusto ko ba to?!" sagot ko. Hindi ko na mapigilan yung emosyon ko. "Im old enough pero kinokontrol nyo pa din ako!" sigaw ko pa din.
"Now you're blaming us? We did everything for you! Having branded shoes, clothes, car everything! We gave you knowledge and education tapos susumbatan mo kami? Is that how you pay us?! Huh?!!!!" galit na sagot ni dad.
"If that was all debt, sure babayaran ko kayo!" diin kong sagot dahilan para makatanggap ako ng malakas na suntok galing kay dad. Napahawak nalang ako sa labi ko ng maramdaman ko ang kaunting dugo na galing sa labi ko.
"Wala kang utang na loob!" bulyaw sakin ng dad ko.
"Stop now honey. Ako na bahala kay Lance. I will talk to him." pagpigil ni mom. She looked at me as if she was saying na sumunod nalang ako. I just walked out.
Charmaine! Charmaine! She makes my life more miserable. And that fucking marriage! Pinapangako ko na she will receive nothing on me, i give her all the blame for all the things happen to me! That marriage will be her karma! It will be all papers. Wala nang iba!
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Charmaine.xxx
It was not a shock knowing me and Lance will live under the same roof. What i am scared of is, how can i be able to express and how can i manage to see him everyday. Yes, we always see each other pero syempre iba pa din yun nasa iisang bubong lang kayo. Lalo nat may hindi kami pagkakaunawaan ni Lance.
I hope everything gets fine. Kelan pa kaya mangyayari yun? Right now, alam kong hinding hindi ko malilinis ang pangalan ko kay Lance and only Tony can clean up the mess she did. She needs to take all the blame!
"What?! With Lance?!" gulat na tanong ni Angela. First period namin and inaantay lang namin dumating yung teacher namin.
"Yeah. Hindi ko din alam gagawin ko Ange. Hindi naman alam ng parents ko na hindi kami okay ni Lance." paliwanag ko.
"Still, thats a favor for you! Bakit ba kasi imbis na kalimutan mo yang si Lance eh mas lalo mopang minamahal?" tanong nya. Napaisip ako. Bakit nga ba? Dapat kalimutan ko na sya. Pero bakit umaasa at patuloy ko pa din syang minamahal? Dahil ba pinanghahawakan ko pa din yung pag asa na maayos kami at mamahalin din ako ni Lance?
"Siguro, i still hold onto the chance na alam kong meron pa talaga." paliwanag ko.
"Seriously? Eh mukhang hindi hindi kana nga nya papatawadin." sira ni Ange. Tama naman sya pero dapat ko pa din panghawakan yung gusto kong mangyari. At kailangan ko din gumawa ng paraan. Kailangan kong mageffort hindi basta mag antay lang.
"You cant tell Ange. I will do everything para mapansin at malinis ko na yung pangalan ko kay Lance." may yabang kong sagot. Pursigido lang siguro ako but,
"You really think so? Luh!" biglang nagsalita si Lance. Dumating na pala sya. Napatahimik ako. Shet. He heard me. Its obvious! Baka kung ano ang isipin nya at misunderstand nya yung sinabi ko. Geez
"Lance thats not what i mean!" mabilis kong paliwanag.
"I dont care. Just want to remind you Charmaine, you and me are nothing even if we get married. Wala kalang sa buhay ko." he said. What a painful words i received this morning. Kumirot na naman yung puso ko. Bakit ba hindi napapansin ni Lance na nasasaktan din ako?
Bakit ba hindi nya mapansin na ako yung totoo?
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Bonus chapter ulit. May maiupdate lang! Sorry. Basahin nyo naman kaseee.
BINABASA MO ANG
Silently, Shouting My Love. (COMPLETED)
RomanceI am Charmaine Cruz, I always hide my true feelings about him. I always keep this inside me. I silently, shouting my love for him. For Lance Latriz.
