Wake Me Up In Year 2202

Chapter 21

※C L O U D ※

"Fvck!"

I yelled as I threw the wine glass on the wall leaving it shattered on the floor.

I was totally out of my mind.  I didn't mean any of those words at all,  it's not true that she's just a fvcking nobody.  She's someone more special than a friend for me.  But I end up screwing everything again. I grip my hair tight while looking at the broken glass on the floor. I can remember the look on Lauren's face the moment I told her that she was just a nobody.  Her eyes were filled with---pain.

I harshly wipe the tear on my eye as I sat on the couch.  I'm trying so hard not to cry.

"Boys don't cry Cloud. "

I said to myself with a bitter smile on my lips.

"Why are you crying? "

Drey ask out of the blue which made me look away.

"I-I'm not crying.  Why the fvck would I cry? "

Drey lean his head on the right like he was processing some information inside his head.

"There are a lot of reasons why humans cry.  Sadness, pain,  depression, happiness,  disappointment, failure---"

"Stop it Drey. "

I was expecting him to leave me alone but he went closer and started rubbing my back.

"There,  there,  everything will be ok soon. "

I wasn't able to control my tears anymore, I allowed it to fall. There's no point in hiding your pain from a robot like Drey. They could read emotions.

I was so carried away by my anger earlier.  With the thought that my mom is messing with my life again makes me angry. 

I rub my hands on my face and  lean my back on the sofa as painful memories flooded my mind.

19 years ago after my father's death she left me without a word.  She left me during the times I needed her the most. I hated her so much for leaving me behind like that,  dogs are even better than her.  Atleast dogs don't abandon their puppies. 

I learn how to survive this cruel world all alone but I know that no matter how mad I was at that moment I shouldn't have fvcking said those words to Lauren. 
I was really an asshole today. 

"I really hope that everything's going to be fine Drey. I caused her too much pain today. "

Drey smiled at me as he raised his right index finger ready to give an information.

"Apologizing is one good way of correcting your mistakes. "

Apologizing...  My lips parted like it was my first time hearing the word. 

❄ F R O S T ❄

"Chicken really goes with cola."

Lauren said in delight while swinging her feet with a piece of chicken leg in her hand. I can't help but smile on how she finds happiness on little things.  I mean most girls needs a lot of things to be happy and here she is happy and contented with some fried chicken and cold soda.  I touch my chest,  feeling an unfamiliar rhythm inside.  A rhythm that I never felt before as I look at her smiling face. Is it right to feel this way towards her knowing that there's a 0 percent chance for her to stay with me? 
Lauren stop eating and her smile went even wider as she put the piece of chicken down.