Dear Love

day 19

4-12-18 // 11:28 pm

Dear Love, 

for the past few days, ive been hoping id see you anywhere

I look for you when I'm out. its pathetic really

ive also been trying to work up the courage to come out as transgender to my father

I did some reading though, about my health insurance coverage for ftm transitioning and I might have to wait until I'm 18 to actually transition physically. 

I feel like crying or having an anxiety attack, I hate this, I hate my body and I don't know what to do.

I want people to accept me and use my name and correct pronouns but I cant even come out to my dad

I wish I had your support. I wish you were around still

11:31 pm