Dear Love

months go by

10-25-18

12:45 pm

To You, 

i remember there was a time when i thought my life was over because you had taken everything good when you left

that was never true. 

hearts can heal and move on

there was never an exact day that i realized i didn't love you anymore, it wasn't really a sudden thought that hit me, it came over time. 

it came when my boyfriend and i sit in my room and laugh while watching shane dawson together

it came when i slow danced in my bedroom with him at 3 in the morning

it came when i gave up my virginity to him

being in love is such an inescapable force but so is coming out of love.

i want to thank you for spending a long year and few months with me, trying you hardest to carry my weight on your shoulders and trying your very best to love me unconditionally 

you are a beautiful man and i hope you find happiness within yourself one day

i hope you find a beautiful woman who will lift you up on your darkest days

i also want to apologize for the difficulty i gave you but i know we're past all that now

keep your head up and have hope for a bright future

-Nikolas

12:53 pm

p.s. listen to the song i put on here if you ever read this, its a lovely song. for me, it makes me reflect on my life, childhood, and relationships. somehow, i feel hopeful for my own future when listening to it.