Obnoxious Oxygen

Chapter Five

I've long loved Ethan. I have loved him for as far as I can remember. I have imagined my future with him. Ethan means everything for me. He's all the idea of love. In my head and deep in my heart, Ethan is all the things ideal.

"Hindi ka pa ba mauubusan ng tubig sa katawan? Mga isang oras ka ng umiiyak." Oxygen said, letting out a yawn.

I ignored him. Surely, he doesn't have any idea how bad I'm going through. Obviously, Oxygen and his likes have never gone and experienced heartbreak. I doubt if men like him ever loved.

"Kahit ilang oras pa ubusin mo kaka-aksaya ng luha mo, wala namang mag-babago. Kung ano ang nakita mo iyon na 'yon."

Nilingon ko siya, sa pagitan ng aking munting mga hikbi ay pinilit kong makabuo ng tanong. "Ano nga ba yung nakita ko? Are they in a relationship? But what about Romee? Ethan is dating her. That's the rumor spreading across the nation."

Well, that's one thing that confused me. Ethan is always seen with Romee and not Lance. But then, I have never seen a photo of them getting intimate. Never kissing. Just how I saw him with Lance. All the more I hate Lance.

"Ethan isn't a douchebag, is he?"

"Gabbana, I maybe every bad thing but I don't speak ill of other people." He let out a heavy sigh. "Kung anuman ang meron kay Ethan at Lance, o sakanila ni Romee. I don't see it as your business. You're not Ethan's girlfriend, are you?"

Other times, I'll hate Oxygen. But right now, I can't hate him. All that he's doing is nothing but stating a fact. I'm not Ethan's girl, I want to. I would love to be. But I wasn't. I was never and I don't think I'll ever be.

"Kung maka-iyak ka akala mo nahuli mo asawa mo na nambababae e, hirap satin minsan sobra reaksyon natin kesa sa nararapat." Malakas siyang humalakhak, bago iabot sakin ang tissue na nasa ibabaw ng dashboard ng kaniyang sasakyan. "Tigilan mo na 'yan mukha kang tanga, promise."

His hand reached for the rear view mirror and adjusted it a little, enabling me to see myself in there. I wasn't surprise to see how wasted I look like. Goodness, am I really made to look like trash in front of Oxygen De Salvo? Not that I care about what he think of me, but I was never too wasted in the sight of anyone.

"Gulat ka noh? Kala mo ganda mo pa, ah"

"Stop looking at me," irap ko.

That didn't stop him from staring, he even moved his body to face me. Having a full sight of my ugly tonight look.

"I said stop looking at me, Oxygen!" I covered my face with my hands, still trying to stop my tears from falling.

"Bakit? Gusto kong makita, gusto kong tignan" sabi niya bago abutin ang aking palapulsuhan at hilahin iyong pababa.

My defenses weakened hearing the softness in his voice that surprised me. I let him stare at me, there's no use of hiding anymore. He'd seen me crying and he'd seen me worse than I am now.

"Bakit ba ang hilig niyong mga babae umiyak? Ano ba 'yan, nakakatuwa ba 'yan? Magandang hobby ba 'yan? Nakaka-fulfill ba 'yan?"

As expected, he wouldn't understand. Guys like him will never understand things like this. They know nothing about heartbreak because they're the ones who break hearts. I used the tissue he gave me to dried the tears away. I cleared my throat and faced him.

"You wouldn't understand. You were never in love."

"Love ko mama ko, mapanghusga ka." He grinned, I looked at him.

Everything about him is obnoxious. That's the best word to describe him. I wonder if he's ever serious about things, Oxygen seems to be the biggest living joke in planet earth.