Obnoxious Oxygen

Chapter Twenty Nine

"They don't understand her. They don't know how hard it is for her. And even if they took her shoes on, they still wouldn't know and wouldn't understand because they're not her." Anger, frustration and sadness join forces to fill my face with my tears as I told Oxygen what happened. "As much as I don't wanna hate them, I'm beginning to. It's not easy for me to watch mom hurting and to see dad causing her pain. I love them, just how you've been in love with your parents. God, Oxygen. This is too much for me."

He heaved a deep sigh and pulled me closer to him. I closed my eyes and let my tears fall down. In Oxygen's arms, I feel safe. And this feels home than any house ever did.

"I know they're thinking that mom has been overreacting, but you know why I get where mom is coming from? Because right now that I'm carrying your child, though it doesn't mean this calls for something we need to step up, I mean, I understand we're both new to this. I want to take everything slowly," I looked up to him and his brows shots up as if something I said amuses him. I rolled my eyes. "I know that sounds hypocrite knowing that I'm already pregnant. But to shoot my point, I don't think I'd be up for something like this in the future, Oxygen. I don't think I could ever absorb the idea of you having a child from one of your exes only to find it out, what? Twenty plus years later? I can't. It's already hard for me to think of the girls you've slept with and having a child from one of them is another thing."

"Gabbana, ano ka ba?" Carefully, he moved me to face him fully. "Hindi 'to tungkol satin. Wag kung anu-ano ang iniisip mo. Hindi maganda para sayo at para sa baby natin, okay?"

But I couldn't help myself. I didn't say that, I just stared at him and waited for his next words. I know there is. Oxygen would say a lot of things to make me feel better.

"Whatever is happening between your parents, it's between them. As much as I'd like you to be less involved for you and our baby's sake since this shit is going to be stressful, I know I can't help that. You are their daughter." He said, looking at me with gentleness in his eyes. "And about your mom, I've told you I never speak ill of others and I never judge them just by the way I see things. People shouldn't judge people by their attitude until they've felt their pain. I've never met your mom but I'm pretty sure, if not a hundred percent, at any percent you're just like her. She won't be defeated by it, she'll come around but for now you all have to give her a break and some space."

My lips slowly curved a smile, how can this man melt my heart with his words is above me. I pulled his arm to get me back to hugging him.

"And as for you, little mommy." He kissed the top of my head and I feel like my stomach took a flip by the way he called me. "I know you're hurting, as a daughter and is probably mad at your dad. But baby, your old man already filled his hand with so much chaos and having you taking sides against him won't help the situation. Be a bigger person and try to understand everything. Pain is unrelenting, I know. Everyone goes through hell, but not everyone stays there. Stop tormenting yourself by reliving it. Wise people know what to let go."

"But I love my mom..."

"If you really love her, get her out don't join her in."

Easier said than done. What he said make sense, I'm not stupid not to get that. But it's not easy. It will be a handful duty for me. Yet as her daughter and as someone who loves and cares for her deeply, I'm into it.

I told Oxygen I need to stay with mom now, besides Zander would wonder if I'm still gonna stay with Oxygen. I don't intend to keep our relationship a secret but right now I have to leave it that way. There's so much more I need to focus on.

I've packed some of my things and after we had dinner, Oxygen drove me off to mom's house. He went on and on reminding me to stay calm and relax. And that I don't have to worry, he believes that everything's gonna be fine.