He Might Be Bad But He's Mine

Wow I Love Her

JD

"Hey babe!" I say letting Jordan run up to me and hug me when I walk into her house after going to get breakfast.

I went to get breakfast because she told me she wanted to be ready to go when I got here so when I had arrived 40 minutes early she sent me on a breakfast run to buy time.

"Heyyyyy!" She says running into my arms like I just got home from the military.

"You literally saw me not even 20 minutes ago and you are reacting like I wasn't here earlier." I said smiling at her.

"I missed you while you were gone is that such a crime?!" She said smiling.

This is gross now we look like one of those couples. I mean not that we are a couple because we haven't quite sorted that out yet and I don't wanna say anything too suggestive so that if she isn't ready for a relationship again then I don't ruin things between us.

We look so mushy and lovey dovey right now that if I had saw myself like this last week then I would've kicked myself in the balls so hard that I wouldn't be able to breathe.

"Aw you guys are so cute!" Jordan's mom walks into the room while Jordan is hoisted up and her legs are around my waist. Instead of calling us cute shouldn't she be worried that this might lead to her daughter being pregnant? Either way she thinks that we're cute so... yeah that's a score in my book.

"Hey I have to tell you something that you're not gonna like too much." I say and J gets this puppy dog face on that is too cute.

"What?" She asks.

"I have to go to football practice after school." I say.

She gets a sad look on her face and asks the cutest question ever: "Can I come watch you?" She is absolutely adorable.

"Yeah of course you can babe!" I say sounding too excited about it.

"Yay!" She screams and plants her lips on mine and gives me the sweetest kiss I have ever had.

Usually when I am kissing girls it's just a hook up which means that I would be kissing a girl with agression and not caring if anyone saw us but it's not the same with J.

J makes me feel a certain way that I find hard to put into words. I would try but it would sound weird. I have liked her since we first met. We were introduced by our parents of course but since then our "friendship" has blossomed greatly.

I know that we might not even ever be that serious but I will always feel the same way about her that I always have.

I would tell J how I feel but that might make things weird because she may not believe me after all of the girls she's seen me with while I have only seen her with one guy and he was horrible to her and absolutely broke her heart to pieces when he cheated on her. I swear I will never do that to her and if I ask her to be my girlfriend then I would also promise to never ever touch or look at another girl because I love her.

WOW!

I love her.

That's the first time that I have ever admitted it even to myself!

I do though...

I should save telling her though for something more important when I have a reason to tell her and not just out of the blue.

When the time is right though she is going to fall head over heels for me because it's gonna be that romantic!

I swear this girl has changed me so much that if I had known two or three years ago that I would be here now and with her then I wouldn't fucking believe it!

J means so much to me and if I ever did anything to mess that up then I would never forgive myself.