He Might Be Bad But He's Mine

What Do I Tell Him?

JD

J was in the bathroom getting ready to go out with her friends. I really wanted to know who these friends were but I don't wanna ask right now because there's something else on my mind and I wanna get that sorted out before I start asking other questions. There was only one question on my mind right now.

"Why had J suddenly stopped when we were so close to having sex?" I wondered to myself.

"Why do you look so concentrated?" J asked laughing at my expression of confusion.

"It's nothing. Just thinking." I replied.

"JD? What is it? You know you can tell me anything right?" She said looking at me probably expecting me to answer honestly. It was really hard to look at her and lie right to her beautiful face.

"Why didn't you wanna...you know.." My sentence trailed off as I said it.

"Didn't wanna what?" She said looking puzzled.

She had to know what I was talking about considering how close we were to it not even fifteen minutes ago.

I guess she really didn't know what I was talking about though because she just looked at me and kept the same puzzled expression.

Jordan

He was on to me!

He was asking me why I didn't wanna have sex but he couldn't say it. It's probably embarrassing to him but I just kept a puzzled face and looked at him like I didn't know what he was talking about. He looked so confused and maybe even hurt that I didn't wanna have sex with him.

I feel bad now. He must think that I don't wanna do that with him but he's got it all wrong. I do wanna do that with him but I don't wanna tell him that I'm not ready or that I'm a Virgin. He'll think I'm a big baby because I'm still a Virgin in high school when everyone is suppose to lose it. I don't wanna lose it to anyone but JD. It's always been that way. But I'm not ready and he seems ready.

What the hell am I supposed to fucking tell him?!

He might get mad at me. He might be sad and think it's his fault. He might never wanna talk to me again. He might not want me anymore if I make him wait. All these what ifs keep running through my brain and I guess there's only one way to find out what he feels or what he's gonna do...