Just like death can be a life saver too
[Just wanted to use Spring Day's lyrics to tell an angsty story]
Started 23.04.18
Finished 30.05.18
(Not edited so forgive the typos and grammar)
(Also I used lyrics off a website that doesn't have the best tr...
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I sat crying in the seat Jin once sat in. The rush was gone and the others were panicked. Jin walked in and immediately knew what had happened.
"I thought you said you were ready," the girl appeared by my side again.
"I'm not strong enough," I cried into my knees as I pulled them to my chin, "I couldn't do it yet."
The pain in my throat felt like a sea of thorns and fire as Jin had everyone move away. My heart monitor was flat lining, the energy rushing through my body still, but it was simply a sedative to the pain in my throat. Jin got my heart going again, somehow, but he still checked everything to make sure what happened wouldn't happen again.
He didn't control that though.
"Then you aren't ready, Jimin," I looked at her and shook my head.
"I am ready," I insisted, "I just need time to build up the courage to fight the pain of it."
I turned back to the group when something smacked into my ear.
"What the hell?" I screamed while standing up as my ear began bleeding. There was some blood on the girl's knuckles.
"If you won't listen to me, listen to them," she pointed at the others.
"I can't hear them," I stared pointedly at her.
"Come on Jimin, don't keep doing that," Jin sighed as he sunk into the chair in fatigue. I stared at him as the others returned to their places.
"What..."
"You must've lost your hearing in crash," the girl shrugged, "It happens. Usually in those cases unless the patient figures it out themselves they don't regain their hearing until they wake up. Lucky for you, I punched you back to your senses."
"You're really disrespectful, you know that?"
The girl shrugged and walked for the door.
"Listen to them, Jimin. Remember what I said. Don't leave too early," she passed through the door as the room quieted again.
"What happened?" I turned to Jin as he spoke up. His voice was quieter than it had been once, but more confident even if he didn't feel that way internally.
"I don't know. The room was quiet and then all of a sudden," Hoseok gestured to my physical form, "Whatever that was happened."
Jin only nodded. He looked around the room, looking for something as if he knew something was there that no one else did. Did he know like the girl did? If he did, he couldn't see me.
"Taehyung," Jin turned to the boy in the blue hoodie, "Is Jimin still suicidal?"
"Still?" the five chimed in with confusion.
"You guys never knew?" they all shook their heads and Jin sighed, "I guess that was for the better..."
"He tried to kill himself before?"
"Three times, almost succeeded the third time too," Jin nodded as he stared at my physical form, "Tried suffocating himself by pressing down on his windpipe."
I looked down at my hands in shame. I'd been trying so hard recently with being positive. I looked back up at the silent members of the room. I sighed again. I say that I'll erase you, but I can't really let you go yet.
__ Well I forgot to double update whoops my bad I'll do that today/if I remember
