Just like death can be a life saver too
[Just wanted to use Spring Day's lyrics to tell an angsty story]
Started 23.04.18
Finished 30.05.18
(Not edited so forgive the typos and grammar)
(Also I used lyrics off a website that doesn't have the best tr...
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A headache slammed through my skull as I tried to keep my hands steady. How many times is Jimin going to come close to death before he wakes up?
"Will he?" I jumped at Jin's depressed voice. I must've said that out loud.
"We have to hope he will..."
"What happens if he doesn't though?"
The room was quiet. The comforting warmth of reuniting with each other was gone. Now, depressing thoughts hung heavier than ever in the air.
"We move on," Namjoon says, though it sounded more like a question.
"Can we?"
The silence returned.
"I know I wouldn't be able to...move on I mean," I spoke up, "Not after everything, both before and after."
"None of us would. No one should."
"The world would lose an angel," I smiled at the thought of Jimin being an angel in a human's body. He looked so fragile and soft under his pink hair. It wasn't a hard thing to picture really.
The room stayed quiet as the hours ticked way past 10pm.
"Maybe he doesn't want to come back," Jin said at last.
"Wouldn't I like to join him," Hoseok scoffed sorrowfully.
"I second that," Namjoon sighed.
"Are we all that suicidal?" Taehyung shook his head.
"Yeah, we are," Jin said sadly. It was the truth. I knew I had wanted to kill myself, end everything, at least two or three times in the past few years.
"Why'd you all stay then?" I asked with nothing else to distract us from Jimin.
"Guilt," Namjoon was the first to answer, "That's why I asked Jimin to see me. He would've been the easiest to say 'I'm sorry' too. If I could get him to forgive me at least...then I'd be ready."
"You planned to kill yourself after?"
"Maybe...what about you guys?"
"Hope," Hoseok sighed.
"Trying to forget," Jin shrugged.
"Jimin," Taehyung hung his head.
"Hanging onto a dream that one day I'd tell Jimin I was sorry," the tears finally found their way to my face as I sat on the floor beside Taehyung and Hoseok.
"You'll get to tell him, Jungkook. You will," Hoseok whispered.
"It really was hope, huh?" Hoseok turned to me sadly and nodded.
Jimin you have to come back. The morning will come again. No darkness, no season is eternal.
