Just like death can be a life saver too
[Just wanted to use Spring Day's lyrics to tell an angsty story]
Started 23.04.18
Finished 30.05.18
(Not edited so forgive the typos and grammar)
(Also I used lyrics off a website that doesn't have the best tr...
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I smiled sadly at Jimin's hand, wondering when he'll wake up again. Hoseok sat up and I lifted my head to him as he pulled something out of his bag.
"Is that...?" Namjoon started laughing and Hoseok joined him.
"I thought he'd like it," Hoseok smiled at the sphere in his hands.
"You even drew the cat on it," Yoongi laughed.
My smile turned happy as I motioned for Hoseok to toss the replica of Jimin's old stress ball to me. I caught it before it hit Jimin's suspended cast, Hoseok looking sheepish from almost injuring him.
"Oops," he chuckled nervously. Yoongi and Namjoon rolled their eyes at him, though it wasn't malicious.
"It looks just like it," I smiled before placing the ball in Jimin's good hand where mine had once been, "Thanks Hoseok."
The older nodded and we all fell silent again. The room felt warmer than it had when we first entered. There was hesitation from everyone, but after four years, what's to expect.
"How's Jimin been?" I turned to Jin.
"Good...I don't really know what else to say about it. That's all he ever told me when I asked."
"You two aren't close anymore?" I turned to Jungkook who had moved into an armchair instead of his window perch.
"Not exactly," I sighed and shrugged, "I left Jimin too, in a way. Not intentionally, but you know..."
I shrugged.
"I guess it was too much, after everything, to stay as close as we were. We talked every week, but usually only on Sundays over coffee or something," I sighed, "I always wondered if he was lying to me about being alright, but the longer four years got, the less I felt okay with asking."
"Do you think he blames us?" Jungkook looked glum.
"For leaving? Why would he?" Jin shrugged.
"He was the only one who wanted to stay together really..." Namjoon sighed, "Even Taehyung only stayed with Jimin, not the rest of us."
I nodded, agreeing with him.
"We were his only family, I get it," Yoongi sighed, shifting in his seat.
"We were the only family any of us had at the time really," Hoseok yawned.
"Some of us still only have that family," Jungkook mumbled and I looked up.
"Your parents still aren't acting like parents?" Jungkook scoffed at my question.
"Will they ever?"
"We got that in common," Namjoon blew out a puff of air. I missed these moments, where we could sit and talk in small bursts and not care about the silences in between. Those silences were always filled, if not with voices then with the presence of each other.
I miss you Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Kim Namjoon, Park Jimin, and Jeon Jungkook. I miss you. How long do I have to wait for us all to say that as seven again?
