Spring Day | BTS ✔

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I could feel tears welling up in my eyes, looking around at the people I once called family. Four years felt like nothing as the hour until 10pm ticked closer. A day had turned into an evening so quickly. The rain poured harder outside, but no one inside cared enough to pay attention to it.

I looked down and saw a circle of wetness on the pillow in my lap.

"Taehyung?" I smiled and nodded at Jin's worried voice.

"I'm fine Jinnie," I sighed, "It's just..."

"You don't have to explain it, we know," Hoseok and Yoongi said as they sighed in unison.

"It's pretty cruel isn't it," I looked up at Jungkook, he had a few tears in his own eyes though they weren't falling like mine, "Our friendship ended painfully. Four years went by painfully. And now, the only reason we're all together again is because of more pain."

"That's pretty cruel," Jin sighed, scuffing his white sneaker against the floor.

"What happened to us?" Hoseok sighed, sniffling a little. None of us could answer that truthfully.

What had happened to us? After everything, what was really left of who we were?

"We grew up," Namjoon sighed.

"And apart," Yoongi added.

"Maybe not," I said, staring at the pillow, "We grew up apart, but that doesn't mean we have to say we grew apart."

"Didn't we though?"

I shrugged.

"Yes and no. We might've all spent the last four years angry at each other or at ourselves or both...but none of us ever let it go, did we? We always grew up with each other, just maybe not in a healthy way."

"Mm," a few of them agreed, though I couldn't see who it was exactly.

I looked behind me at Jimin's comatose state.

I wonder what was going on in his head. Could he hear us? Was he walking around like Jin said?

I thought I saw Jimin's hand twitch in his cast for a moment and my heart raced. Then I noticed that the sling edge was quivering under the air conditioner and it faded slightly.

I was tired, every event of the day making it hard to stay awake at this point. Jungkook had already dozed off in the armchair and Namjoon was heading there as well. Even Yoongi and Jin yawned after long days of their own, in their own capacity. Hoseok stared at the floor, his eyes focused on the tile one minute, on nothing the next, and back again.

I was about to fall asleep sitting up myself before a soft choking sound behind me made me spring up. I fell to the floor as the heart monitor went crazy and Jin snapped to attention. The sleepy aura of the room was burst into panic and worry as Jimin went through his third episode. I began to cry and Hoseok rubbed my arm to calm me down, helping me stand.

Goddammit Jimin, There are people here who are waiting to meet you all over again. They all came here to meet you and look where we are, where you had always wished for us to be. Don't die on us now. Not before you get to see it.

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I lost my will to care about school for a few days and now I'm panicking yay me 🙃🙃🙃