Life Isn't Fair

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In an abyss of black, I spot Rick and the crew, standing and waiting for me on the other side of the black horizon. As I got closer to the group, I started seeing the actual faces, and I realized that I've never seen these people before. They actually looked apart of the group that had shot me. With rage in my pupils, and a clenched jaw, I'm getting closer and closer until all of a sudden I fall into an endless void, losing my footing at the last second and slipping into the darkness. A light was shining brightly into my face and for a literal moment, I thought I was going to die in peace. But for some reason my feet were now stumbling on themselves as I ran through the woods. I looked behind me, confused, and noticed that a horde was chasing me down. I turned back around and realized that my shoes weren't on anymore. I saw a river and started to splash water when I ran through. When I turned back around, nothing was there. I looked down at my feet, and I still had no shoes on. It spooked me at first, all of this stuff going on at once, but when I came to a walk in the water and the stream was cool and refreshing on my feet, I finally calmed down. Mockingbirds were bouncing melodies to each other and creating a beautiful sound, I realized that this was my own little heaven. The woods are always were I want to be, in nature and listening to the stream flowing with birds flying around me. All of a sudden, I'm as warm as a summer day. I look down and notice that I'm wrapped in a fluffy Grey blanket, and I'm sitting in front of a fireplace with a hot chocolate wrapped up in my hands as I'm sipping it. My eyes wander around and I see my mother and father dancing and singing happily together, and my little sister stuffing her face with cookies and laughing as well. I stand to my feet, and begin to walk over to my family. "Mom? Dad? Chloe?" My voice is slow and echoing, but none of them seem to see me standing there. I go to hug my dad but I go straight through him. I turn around confused, and swipe my hands through him again. More than upset that I can't speak or touch my family, I sit back on the couch and wrap up in the blanket. The only thing I can't seem to touch is my family. And it hurts. Not being able to tell them how much I love them and goodbye. My eyes close and tears stream down my face, but when I open them I'm in the black abyss again. "Skylar? Skylar! Wake up!" A echoed voice says. I can't pinpoint who, but it sounds familiar.

I jump up quickly, and get a stab of pain through my body. When I open my eyes, I see Rick shouting towards the door, but I can't hear anything. There's a loud ringing in my ears, and my vision is blurry. I start to hear voices, echoing, and my eyes start to droop closed. I'm dizzy, and my temperature is blazing. I shut my eyes tightly and slowly reach to grab my head, to try and protect myself. But it doesn't go away. I open my mouth and try screaming, but I can't hear anything but ringing so I just try and keep making high pitched noise. When I finally hear voices my eyes are still tightly shut and I'm still holding my head, thinking that it was some kind of trick. "You're okay, You're okay." A male voice says gently and runs their fingers through my hair. When I finally open my eyes, I'm staring into Rick's beautiful eyes. He smiles, and his lips come to my forehead to give me a loving kiss. He's like a father to me. I would protect him even if it meant my own life being taken. My breath hitches and I yawn, and when I go to speak my throat is dry and scratchy. "How- How long have I been out?" I whisper, raspy voice and all. "For a couple weeks. In a short coma I think." He says. "I didn't want to come back." I say, remembering the beautiful memories that I had, and letting tears fall down the side of my face. I sit up gently with Rick's help, and try and walk around the room. I've had enough rest. I just want to go into the woods now. I go home, Michonne by my side now, and get changed into some dark blue jeans, a long sleeve dark red shirt that I had help getting into because of my wound, and into my combat boots. I take two strands of the hair in front of my face and tie it back (Above). I grab my pistol and machete, and Michonne carefully handles her katana and a sniper just in case. I try to walk steadily by myself to the gates, and when I arrive Daryl goes to object to letting me out, but he quickly got cut off. "No- Let us out." Michonne's smooth voice speaks behind me. I turn around and see her giving Daryl a look that says, 'Let us out or she'll go crazy'. I look back up to Daryl's unsure face, and smile when the gate finally gets opened. My head nods to Daryl, and out I go. When me and Michonne get far enough, we take a sharp right into the woods where I wanted to be this whole time, to try and relive the happiness. I break off into a run, and Michonne is right behind me, and a second later I'm splashing through water. I stop trying to catch my breath, but the air escaping my lungs seems to be the only sound around me, aside from the calming river stream. I look around, unsure, and predict that maybe Michonne just took a different route. But why would she do that? She definitely looked like she was trying to catch up with me. So then where is she? Out of nowhere a blood curdling scream emits from the trees in front of me, and my feet take off before my mind even has time to comprehend what could've happened. "Skylar!" I hear Michonne screaming, seeming to be in a struggle, which makes me go all the more faster."Michonne? Michonne!" I'm screaming her name through the woods, the echolocation ringing through my ears, and I slow down to a jog, then a walk, then a stop when I see it. Michonne laying on the ground, being eaten by a group of walkers. I drop to my knees, tears already falling down my face, but a voice makes me jump back up. "Y'know, It always HAS been your fault Skylar. Ollie, Beth, Your sister, Your parents. Hell, you even betrayed your own! How pathetic can you get?" "Stop...I didn't mean for anything to happen to them!" I frantically search around but I can't seem to find the source. "Well. That didn't get you very far or very much trust did it?" I cover my face with my hands, and shut my eyes tight. "You can't hide what you've done forever. It'll catch up to you one day. Remember that." "Go away!" I yell, and after a couple of seconds of ringing, it's gone. Michonne's body and the walkers are gone. I sigh and turn around, only to be met with Michonne's concerned and curious eyes. "Are you okay?" She raises her wrist, and sets it gently on my forehead, but I shake it away. "I'm perfectly fine." I give a fake smile and start to walk back to Alexandria. When I'm in front of the gates, I get questioned, which of course I don't take kindly to. "Where were you? What was the screaming about?" Daryl asks. "How did you-" I get cut off by a hug, from the one and only, Rick. "Michonne had a walkie. She left it on and said that you probably need help, but then whatever it was went away and to stay put. I'm so sorry." Rick took my small hands in his big ones, and rubbed the top if my hand with his thumb. It calmed me down. "Let's go inside and we can talk about it." Rick says and leads me, and Michonne back into the gates.