Life Isn't Fair

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It never seemed to end. Me taking bullets for the people I love. Literally. I lay there on the floor bleeding, because they couldn't bring me to the infirmary and fight at the same time. So I laid there, in a pool of my own blood. My eyes were slowly fluttering open and shut, and my vision was getting foggy.

                *Flashback
"We have to!" My father yells as he points the gun to his head. My mother sits there, with tears streaming down her face. "Goodbye. God forgive me." He says, and pulls the trigger, killing him in a instant. I scream, my voice hoarse, and then my mother takes the gun from his cold dead fingers, and she decides to go with him. "I hope you join us. So you wouldn't have to be on the run anymore. I love you with all of my heart. Goodbye." I look away and have Chloe, my little sister, hiding in my chest. When I hear the gunshot, I jump and more tears come down my face. But I have to stay strong for Chloe. I try to control my emotions, and I try to hide my depressing expression, for her. For Chloe. But I can't seem to do anything out of shock. So I stand there, in shock and refuse to believe that they're gone, and stare at the ground. Little did I know, there were walkers coming in slowly. I had long let go of Chloe, and she was in front of me, trying to get me to calm down. I heard a groan from behind me and I swerved quickly, and the walker got her instead. I screamed until my voice couldn't handle being used anymore, and I watched her die. In front of me. I killed the walkers that were coming in, and I found strength to give her a beautiful last moment. I sat next to her, holding her now dead form, and let my tears fall onto her face. I brushed the hair she had in her face away. She looked younger than she was. Only Eight, and gone. "Remember when we used to play hide and seek? I always would find you hiding behind the curtains or in the empty hot tub." I cried happily at the memory, but soon was angry at the world for taking her from me. I picked her up and walked to my backyard, where wild Lillies and Tulips were growing. I layed her down in the flowers and put some on her belly, making it look like she was holding them. I sang a lullaby before I left, a sweet, soft song that always sang her to sleep when my parents would argue and scare her.   

      No problems now, Up where you are, Up in the stars, with the other children, exploring mars, like you always wanted.

I had made it up, because Chloe always loved space and the stars, her laugh as bright as the sun. My heart sank to my toes when I realized that I'll NEVER hear her laugh, cry, cute anger, her happy smile, her calling for my name, and I noticed a tear streaking running down her face. I look up, only to be met with a walker version of my little sister. It killed me. I drove my knife through her skull to get rid of the suffering, and walked away without any other words. It hurt. So bad. Losing my family all in one right in front of me. I had shut everything off. I didn't smile, I didn't cry, I didn't get needy, and all I could think of was getting revenge. I didn't care for the people I met, anything. Until I met Rick.

                   *End Of Flashback*
The pool got bigger as did the number of enemies coming over the gates and into the houses, but all I could do was stare at the beautiful sky, watching as the sun slowly traveled in the middle, like an egg yolk, waiting to be cooked. I didn't even realize that tears were coming down my face, and so many too, but I eventually became numb, just like my chest was becoming. It didn't matter now, any of it. I looked to the side and realized that it was over. Finally, I was lifted up by the arms of Rick, Glenn, and Daryl. I looked into Rick's eyes, and was losing focus of what they were saying, but they were definitely telling me that everything would be okay. He knows I'm not stupid. "Come on!" Glenn yells, his face fearful and strained as he and Rick take me from there. Daryl ran and got Maggie, and Michonne. I sighed in relied when my back was finally layed on a soft mattress. "Don't be afraid. You still have each other." I say, whole heartedly while holding Rick and Michonne's hand. Rick's eyes were red, and he had tears filling his blue eyes, making them look like the ocean. I tried to speak, but my lungs were being robbed of air at this moment. I put my shaky hand on Glenn's face, and I mumble a 'thank you' to him. I do the same to Daryl, and Maggie. They give me time to talk to Rick alone. "This is not how it was supposed to go." He said shakily, and looked anywhere but my eyes. "Look at- at me." I coughed, and he squeezed my hand even tighter. "You're fit for this. You're the best person I've ever- ever known, and you are such a great leader. You deserve a long and happy life. Try and- and make that happen for you and Carl and Michonne. Okay? I love you. Protect your family okay?" I put my hand on his face and he leans into it, like a lifeline. He leaves and Daryl brings in Dallas. Once he sits him on my stomach, I sing the soft lullaby I used to sing to Chloe. He lays down on me and cuddles into me, and more tears manage to come out of my already red and puffy eyes. "It's not fair. Life. It really isn't. So you be careful. And know that I love you." I squeak out and hug him tight, and kiss his forehead. "Goodbye son." I barely get out and a second later Daryl comes in. "Hey Leatherjacket." I tease while smiling, and he doesn't say anything but just stares at me with tears in his eyes. "You stay strong okay? Don't let other people tell you what you can and can't do. You're a hunter. Show them that you can take care of yourself. I love you. Goodbye Daryl." I kiss his forehead and he leave the room with a few tears on his cheeks as well. Next, it's Maggie. "Hey farmer's daughter." I knew she loved the nickname, because Glenn called her that sometimes. "You're going to be a great mom. I will NEVER forget how kind you are to me and how good spirited you are Maggie. I love you, and remember, keep in eye on that troublemaker will you?" I smile weakly, talking about Glenn, who comes in next after Maggie exits. "Hey baseball cap." I smile and so does he, weakly though. "You be there for Maggie and that baby. Protect them with your life. You remember me. I love you. Goodbye Glenn." I try but my voice is becoming hoarse. "Goodbye- Sk-Skylar." He stutters and he has utter pain on his face like the others. "Hey Katana Master." I say smiling. "Hey." She says, taking both of my small hands in hers. "Judith is now your baby, even if you didn't sign up for it. You need to keep that man sane. Okay? Stay safe okay? I love you girl. Goodbye." I give her a tight hug, and she leaves but Carl quickly comes in next. "Hey Cowboy, take care of your beautiful sissy okay? Don't make the same mistake that I did. Always remember me okay? I love you a lot son. Goodbye." Carl was heartbreaking to do, because his expression was so depressing and angry. That's the last of them I guess." I squeak out. My heart sinks when my eyes start to close. Goodbye world.