Babygirl || Lucky B Smith

3.4

When I walked to the floor of my apartment I noticed a man sitting by my door. As I got closer I realized it was Luke. He noticed me and quickly wiped his eyes.
"Were you crying?" I asked as I came up to him, he shook his head and stood up.
"No I wasn't crying what makes you think I was crying?" He frowned. I glanced into his bloodshot eyes with a small smile. I always found it adorable when Luke would show emotions since he has such a jock personality.
"What's wrong? Do we need to go take a walk?" Luke shook his head.
"No. I wasn't crying, it's just- the air is dry out here."
"Okay sure." I rolled my eyes at his dumb excuse.
"Is Alec okay now?" I asked him. He just simply shrugged.
"What happened to him?" He asked me quietly.
"Nothing, he just freaked out a little."
"No he literally thought he was dying, I thought he was having a heart attack or something I almost called 911." Luke's voice cracked with nervousness built up and his eyes began to water again.
I hugged him tightly.
"I know it can be freaky to see. I promise Alec is fine."
"Are you sure?" He mumbled.
"Yes. Now what are you doing out here?"
Luke pulled away and wiped his eyes again.
"I don't know really I was just waiting for you to get home I guess."
"And your apartment is no good?" I chuckled causing Luke to roll his eyes.
"Come in, I'm sure Alec would like to see you."
"No, um I better not."
"Are you sure? Why not?" I was quick to question him but his paling expression was making me think twice about bombarding him with questions.
"I- I'm sorry Andrea, I just got really freaked out about Alec. I'm going to need a while."
"Okay." I mumbled and Luke quickly hugged me tightly, his face nuzzled up against the crook of my neck as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"I'll be back maybe after supper." He mumbled before leaving.
I sat on my couch when a knock sounded at my door. I was just wearing a tight fitted tank top and some loose shorts with my hair up in a messy bun but I decided to brave it out and answer the door.
"Hi," Lucky gave a small smile when I opened the door. I blushed a little from embarrassment over my look when I saw his put together one.
"I have a proposal. Just hear me out please." Lucky started.
Alec who has yet to talk to me in the last two days glanced up from his phone to hear the conversation.
"What is it?" I asked.
"Okay this is crazy, but I have to go back to New York tomorrow for my job, and I was wondering if you and the whole crew wanted to come."
"Absolutely not." Alec cut in. His expression was cold and his words were short. Lucky sighed and nodded. His nervous face turned to dissatisfaction.
"I mean maybe we could go for a weekend, just to see it out." I shrugged.
Lucky stared at me his eyes widened slightly. I never really take the time to take in his stunning features. He's so effortlessly stunning it's annoying. His crisp blue eyes grab your attention like a tide and pull you in. His lips, his lips are so juicy, so plump and pink and moisturized. So..
"Andy?" He asked making me fall out of my trance with deep red embarrassment.
"What?" I mumbled.
"So your coming?"
I glanced back at Alec who shook his head.
"Yea we will all come."
"For fucks sake!" Alec muttered.
"Ahh thank you! You won't be disappointed!" Lucky hugged me tightly and I pulled away.
A wave of disappointment flickered across his face when I declined the hug but it was quickly hidden.
"I'm very happy you said yes. Thank you thank you."
.

And here we were five days later on a packed full plane to Minneapolis, then another to New York.
Lucky wasn't with us and neither Marcus. Lucky went earlier and we would meet him there. Although Isabel, Kate, Sebastian, Luke and Alec were.
I sat beside Luke on the first flight because Alec forced him to switch tickets so he didn't have to sit with me. He was still so upset.
He rather sat with Isabel. Who constantly bully's him and mocks him of his weight.
It was 4:45 am and we were just taking off. I've never been one to fall asleep on planes so this was going to be a long flight.
"Fuck me." Luke groaned from beside me. I glanced at him with a little concern.
"Are you okay?"
He hesitated for almost a minute with his eye closed I had thought he had ignored me when he muttered,
"I'm getting a migraine."
Luke had started to get migraines after his head accident and they were very severe. The first few times he got them it sounded like he was dying. He wailed in pain. I guess after that the doctors gave him super heavy drugs that would hopefully knock him out before his migraines got bad and they would work most of the time.
"Do you have your medicine."
"Yeah," he winced and pulled out his backpack from underneath his seat.
He groaned and closed his eyes,
"Can you grab them please?" Luke wined.
"Yes." I grabbed his backpack and put it on my lap.
I zipped it open to search through. As I pushed through the bag I found this little notepad full of writing. I peeked inside to see the start of every letter was,
Dear Alec,
"Cmon!" Luke groaned, I glanced up to him to see his eyes closed and I quickly tucked the notepad under my leg. I grabbed the bottle and handed it to him.
He shook it in his mouth and swallowed three. My eyes widened and I quickly grabbed the pill bottle from him.
"Jesus Christ Luke! Your only supposed to take one!"
"Can you stop talking." He mumbled his eyes closed again.
Luke whimpered in pain a few times before being knocked out cold by the drugs. I decided this was a perfect time to read the letters.

Dear Alec,
I wish I could tell you. I wish I could tell you so bad that I love you.
I have before, you seemed to think I meant something else.
I love you. I love you more than I could ever love a friend, I love you like a soulmate.
Now these feelings are so hard for me. I've only ever dated or been attracted to women but when I see you I get so confused.
I'm sorry if I've been quiet lately.
I need to figure out what is happening to me.
All that's clear to me now is how much I love you.

My eyes widened as I glanced at Luke, who was now sleeping peacefully. Then at Alec. He was looking down at his phone, his earbuds in listening to music. I missed Alec so much.
I wished he had sat beside me.
I want to tell him so bad about the letters. Maybe that would make things clearer for him. Maybe he would be so focused on all this he'd forget about our clash. No. I knew I had to deal with it.
He heard me tell Luke about his eating disorder.
And he hates me for it now.
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Some major stuff is coming and I'm very excited for you guys lol