Always | Peter Parker x Reader

Chapter 18: stay (part 1)

The rest of the day, Y/N and I didn't really talk. I kinda ignored her, and she didn't push.

I felt bad for not telling her, but it would be a dick move if I did.

Her dad does know about her and Flash, and told me not to worry about it.

I can't stop thinking about her though, and I hate it.

I hate how I can't have her, or touch her, or be with her.

And she might never know that, until today.

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-After school-

-Around 7:00pm-

-Your POV-

I laid in my bed, still thinking about what happened today.

And what I walked in on at lunch.

I wanted to say something to Peter, but I don't want to pry. In a way I was also a bit mad at him. How could he keep this from me?

The guy I was dating was beating up my best friend?

I should've seen it coming.

Flash is an asshole, and I never really felt anything for him.

It's Peter who I have feelings for.

I think that's why I got together with Flash. To drift away from Peter, because I know he likes Gwen. He stares at her all the time, I mean it's kinda obvious.

After around an hour of sulking in my bed, I got up the courage to talk to Peter.

I took a deep breath, as I walked across the hall and knocked on his door.

"Come in," he said, barely loud enough for me to hear.

"Hey," I stood at the door, with my arms crossed.

"Hey," he rolled over to face me, as he was facing the opposite wall before.

"Can I?" I asked, motioning to the bed.

He nodded, so I laid down beside him.

We spent a couple minutes, in the comfortable silence, looking up at the ceiling.

I could feel my heart rate get faster by the second, so I decided to finally break the silence.

"How long?" I asked, turning to him.

"How long what?" He responded, clenching his jaw and continued looking up.

"How long has Flash been doing this to you?"

"Oh, I dunno, 8th grade?" He said sarcastically.

"Even when we were...together? He did this behind my back, and you just let him? Letting me thinking it was the bad people out there doing this to you. Why didn't you tell me? The only reason I didn't get involved was because I thought you could handle it, being Spider-Man and all. If I knew, I-"

"Because. I didn't want you to hate me. You're my best friend. What kind of a person would I be to ruin your relationship with someone?" He sat up, leaning against the headboard.

I did the same.

He finally looked at me, and I saw the cuts on his cheek, and the swollen black eye he had.

"Why did you even like him? What did you see in him?" His voice cracked.

"I-I" Fuck. Should I tell him? I have feelings for you, Peter.

"Whatever, it's fine."

There was another uncomfortable silence, and it was driving me crazy.

"You know what? It's not fine. At all. You wanna know why I dated him? It's because of you," I burst.

"M-me? What does that h-have to do with me?" He asked, shocked.

"Because, I, I like you. And I know you like Gwen, with the way you look at her. I knew you wouldn't like me so I did it to get away from you. I used him, ok? Is that what you wanted to hear?"

"I-I-" he stuttered.

"You know what? I should probably go, bye Peter," I said, wiping the tears from my eyes and cheeks. 

(A/N): omfg this is so short. I wanted to spilt this part in two, idk why. It's currently 9:40pm, and I'll have the second part of this chapter up in an hour at the most, depending on how long it is. It may be really short, so sorry.

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