note to self | vrene

bae joohyun

"hey seulgi. do you think i'll ever get married?"

seulgi stopped, with the spoon in mid-air, and her jaw dropped at my question.

school was already over, and today i asked seulgi to eat with me at a bingsu cafe downtown. but honestly, i'm just using this as an excuse.

today, he was supposed to exchange his notebook with mine. but i couldn't do it.

after what happened with taehyung yesterday, i didn't have the courage to face him. i wanted to avoid him as much as possible, so i ran away.

i know that i can't keep this on forever, but its a weekend. and if means that i could stall this until monday, then i'll do whatever i can.

"okay. i'll be honest with you joohyun. with a personality like that, no man could ever stand it! but ofcourse, with a face like yours, you'd probably snag someone, and after a few years just divorce you in the end."

my eyebrow arched "say that again?" although she just laughed at me hysterically, "i'm just kidding i'm sorry! i'm sorry!" and continued eating like nothing. i just sighed at her silliness and also took a spoonful in my mouth.

i'll be nice to her today i thought. only because it's been awhile since i hung out with seulgi.

don't ask me why, just curse jimin.

"hey joohyun.." seulgi finished her bingsu and tried to initiate a conversation again. but i wasn't done with mine, "you finally got boy problems don't you?"

i choked at her question, being unable to answer for a few seconds. but all she did was stare at me like a living prey.

"i see. so you do." she nodded with a satisfied grin on her face.

i suddenly felt blood rush up to my cheeks. how did she know? "me? boy problems? heck no."

"ooohhhh. is it a girl then?" seulgi leaned towards the table between us and blinked her eyes continually. i swear, seulgi definitely lives off of teasing me and wendy.

"i give up. there's no use talking to you." i said as i took my bag and hung it on my shoulder. "let's go."

"now now, don't be too sensitive." seulgi did the same. she stood up from her seat, took her backpack and clung onto my arm like a kid. "tell you what, let's go to the bookstore today. i know you love going to them right?"

the bookstore..hm.

"f-fine."

"yay! to the bookstore!"

seulgi is usually energetic. ofcourse, she's athletic too, so she's got tons of energy to spare. seulgi's usually cool and chic on school premises, but around her friends, she's very mischievous and bubbly. despite her clashing personality, she's really genuine and passionate. i wonder if jimin knows he's one lucky guy?

"joohyun, you know its ironic how you love reading books, but you hate studying, is there a difference?" i was skimming through some pages when seulgi suddenly sneaked up on me, catching me off guard.

i screamed, but i'm just glad that this is a bookstore instead of a library.

"stupid. ofcourse there's a difference!" i huffed, "and why is this coming from you?"

"nothing. i just thought..isn't it the same as love?" seulgi smiled and patted my shoulder gently. "you love him, but you don't want to be with him. that type of irony. don't you agree?"

i froze. there was nothing else i could say to her, or else i'd feel even more guilty than i am now.

"kang seulgi!"

but i felt even worse, when the person whom i was trying to avoid since this morning, was right behind me all along.