My Nerd Project

Chapter 21: Thanks For That

Tell me that didn't just happen.

The glasses fell from my grip and I couldn't even grab them before I quickly left the room. I passed by her without saying anything. Surely, I already said enough. I heard her steps following me, but I only quickened my pace and grabbed my backpack on my way out. I needed some air. I needed my glasses, but there was no way I was going back for them. I ruined everything. Everything. I sat in the park's bench and put my head down. I should've just slammed that door, anything as long as it was closed. I heard footsteps making their way closer to me.

"Alan." Blaine was in front of me panting. We both knew she was more fit than I was but she probably just didn't have a second to catch her breath. She walked closer to me now when I didn't say a word. "Alan." I started to feel embarrassed now.

"What Blaine, what?" I muttered, refusing to look up.

"You're a faster runner than I remember." She said trying to lighten the mood. God, I wish I had my glasses now. Blaine came to sit next to me. She grabbed my hands and tried to get me to look up at her.

"I ruined everything Blaine." I told her.

"Did you mean it, what you said?" I nodded at her question. "Then why can't you look at me?" I just shrugged.

"You don't have to say anything, I get it." I said still consumed in my self-pity. When I wanted to tell her, I wanted to at the very least say it to her face, but I messed that up as well.

"Alan." She said in an upset voice so I finally looked up at her. Before I knew it, I told her what I kept in for as long as I can remember.

"I love you Blaine, okay? I have ever since we were kids..I tried to change thinking it would change things, how people treated me, how you felt about me.." I said not able to help it.

"You don't even know how I felt about you." She said with a hurt expression.

"How could it be you possibly care for me the same if you started this whole thing? The whole 'change a nerd to Mr. Popular'". I said gesturing to myself.

"I just wanted to show you it didn't matter what people thought." She said with her eyes shining, and I couldn't help the snort that came out of me.

"That's why you changed me to fit their standards." I told her trying to make her see it how I did.

"I didn't want you to be bullied anymore, I just wanted people to accept you for the real you." Tears were streaming down her cheeks and I felt like the biggest jerk in the world. I could feel her loosening her grip on my hands so I used one of my hands to wipe her tears and the other hand to hold her hands. "The guy that I love, why is it so impossible that I could feel the same?"

"Don't mess with me Blaine.." I said with a blank expression.

"Why is it so impossible?" She repeated.

"I'm a dork Blaine, get over it." I said with a half smile. She looked like she was going to continue crying, so I quickly hugged her.

"You're such an idiot." She told me. I chuckled.

"I know. It's okay Blaine." I said rubbing her back. She pushed away from me and I reluctantly let her go.

"I love you Alan, I really do." She said. I pushed the hair out of her face and smiled at her. I couldn't help but smile. I've wanted to hear those words forever. This moment felt surreal yet in a great way.

"I know, I love you too Blaine." She smiled back at me and I quickly brought her back in my arms. We hugged each other and I honestly couldn't even grasp this situation.

"It's easier to tell you than I thought it would be.. it feels nice." She said and I could feel my heart beating quicker, but it still felt so amazing.

"It does, right?" I agreed slowly feeling on top of the world.

"Yeah, it's fantastic." We both broke apart when we heard Jasper's voice. "Isn't this so cute?" Now, I can see what Blaine was talking about. About Jasper's taunts. "He can't possibly feel the same." Jasper said in a girly voice. Is that what Blaine would always say?

"Jasperr!" Blaine said with a red face. I couldn't help but laugh and Jasper joined me. "Alan!" She said hitting me. I laughed for a little more while until Jasper continued.

"And I can't do it, I'm a dork." Jasper started taunting me.

"Hey!" I said getting red.

"Don't let me stop you two from confessing your love for each other." He said amused. I covered my face feeling too exposed. Geez this was embarrassing..

"What about your girlfriend?" Blaine said to me. I quickly looked at Jasper, knowing he would get the wrong idea.

"No-no I have no girlfriend!" I said quickly not missing Jasper's glare. Is she trying to get me killed?

"But Shelly said-" Blaine started. Shelly?? Really?

"And you believed her? Blaine, it's Shelly. That girl's a witch." I said annoyed that I didn't expect that it was Shelly behind this. I should have known.

"Shelly who?" Jasper asked looking angry still. Blaine turned her attention to her brother.

"Remember Shelly Phelps, Team Captain?" She answered.

"Don't tell me Jessica Phelps' little sister?" Jasper asked now looking annoyed. Thankfully, it didn't look like it was aimed at me. Blaine nodded. "I hated that girl. She would always gossip about people right in front of her while ignoring them in the process." Jasper said ranting and even though this situation was weird, I couldn't help but smile and grab Blaine's hand. She smiled back at me. Jasper rolled his eyes at us, ending his rant, and throwing me my glasses. "Here Alan."

Glad that I had my backpack with me, I put my contacts away. Afterwards Blaine grabbed my glasses and put them on me herself. She put them on lopsided.

"Thanks for that." I said rolling my eyes at her but still smiling.

"Perfect, right?" She said.

"Yeah it really is." I said loving this moment and the girl in front of me.