My Nerd Project

Chapter 14: It's Whatever

The weekend was over. And I was back at school. Kevin gave me a pat on the back when he saw me first thing in the morning.

"For a smart person, you're not that bright." Yep. Those were definitely not the words I wanted to hear.

"How would you know that if we were working out all weekend; you know how sore I felt this morning?" I actually wanted an apology for how hard he worked me..

"You didn't have to do anything, you know? We agreed on weekdays only. You're the one who stayed." My fingers were twitching to strangle him thinking of that whistle that wouldn't stop being blown. Seriously.

"Hey Kevin!" Jesse shouted as he came over. They did that handshake thing while I threw my textbooks that I barely had time to read into my locker. I winced at the impact; my arms still are aching like crazy. "What's up Al?" He put his arm out ready to do the same shake to me while I just acted like I was too focused on what's in my locker. As if I needed something else for them to tease me about, I didn't know how to do that stupid handshake. "Alan?" Jesse shut the locker as he put his hand back up.

"Yes?"  I said with a drop of annoyance like usual.

"What's up?" I stood there awkward as I didn't know what to do. I thought about it for a second until I slapped his hand. He squeezed it and brought it to his chest as he used his other hand to bring us into a manly embrace. I guess the force of it makes it so 'manly'. I guess it is cooler than the secret handshake the chess club has. Kevin nodded satisfied.

"You know what Jesse? The nickname Al just doesn't seem fitting; I think Ally-poo is better." Kevin's words sparked laughter between them.

"Come on, let's ask Blaine."

I shook my head at their randomness and let them go because I knew they weren't really going to Blaine.

"Jerks," I muttered as I heard their laughter knowing they heard me. They weren't so bad. I reopened my locker to get my books and a tap on my shoulder redirected me to my next tormentor. "Shelly? What do you want?" Real smooth Alan, I scolded myself.

"I just wanted to check if you were okay." She put a strand of her blonde hair behind her ear.

Kevin's advice flew in my mind.. Don't seem too desperate to have her attention.

"Just a little sore, that's all." She chuckled at my reply.

"I'm going to take a guess and say that we're not talking about the same thing?" She continued anyway. "I wanted to see if you're okay after the Blaine thing." she explained. Huh. I guess I judged all these popular people too soon. My heart did sting at the mention of her though..

"I'm fine; I mean there's always other fish in the sea." I don't want other fish, I frowned on the inside, but I put the appearance I didn't care on the outside. I topped my reply with a 'it's whatever' in the end. She put her hand in my hand.

"Maybe I could be one of those fishes." She gave me a kiss on the cheek. "Call me, yeah?" She left my wide-eyed expression and the sheet with her number in my hand as she walked to her cheerleaders. She winked at me as she disappeared into the science room. No, no, no this has to be a trick! I looked around to see if Kevin was around to prank me, and my view captured Blaine as I looked to my right. Had she seen that?!

"Hey." By the tone of her voice, I guessed not. There was no accusation in her voice. "Could we talk, please?" I shrugged, trying to keep my cool facade up as if my heart wasn't beating as repeatedly as Jesse's taunts.

"Sure." Should I look up? I want to..

"Look, I know I- please tell me that isn't lip gloss on your cheek." My hands immediately went to wipe my cheeks. I looked at her knowing she was going to get the wrong idea again. The paper that was secured in my hand fell out. The whole number wasn't in sight, but some of the numbers were visible as half on the sheet was faced up.

"Let me explain. First, I don't have a girlfriend-"

"Is that what you told the girl you're cheating on the poor girl with?" Anger coursed in my body; who was she to judge me based on lies?

"Stop it Blaine. If anything, you're the one who isn't what she seems." I bent down and snatched the number from the ground trying to release some of my anger.

"That must be true if I have you hiding a girlfriend from me, and Shelly thinking I'm after Jesse! I-It's like you're not even the same person anymore." She accused, a hurt expression taking over her face. My mind blanked as I grabbed the books I needed and closed the locker.

"You made me this way, Blaine." I began to walk away until she grabbed my arm to stop me. Did I always have to be the girl in the relationship?

"Don't; please, let's just talk it out." She said softly. I looked back at her face, and my anger vanished as I let out a sigh.

"I don't want to Blaine. I'm nothing to the girl I'm in love with." I looked into her eyes, "It's whatever."

Not wanting to hear anymore, I sped the corner to rush to my first class, knowing that I only had a few minutes to get there anyway.

When she was talking to Shelly yesterday, was she talking about Jesse instead of me? When she said there was no way she could've liked him? It could've been another one of Shelly's tricks to mess Blaine and me up.. Just sometimes, I'm such an idiot.