Broken Pieces

Broken Pieces Part 25

*Justin's POV*

"Sel are you okay? You've been quiet since we came back from court."

She looked up at me looking like a deer caught in headlights. She shook her head, "Um.. Yeah. Sorry. I just have a lot on my mind. I'm okay."

I wrapped my arms around her pulling her closer to me. "Wanna talk about it?" I asked.

"No, it's okay. But we still have to talk about us."

I sighed and loosened my grip on her.

"Oh stop. You knew we would have to talk about it sooner or later," she said.

"What is there to talk about?"

"Well, for one, our status. Then we need to talk about counseling," she commented.

I sighed once more, "The counseling I can do that anytime. I have no more meetings for a few weeks so whenever you want to do that. As for the status of our relationship, you tell me."

She leaned back onto my chest, "I don't know I mean, let's just stay engaged if we realize that we aren't ready later on then we can take a step back. I mean it's not like we were planning on getting married anytime soon."

"Okay, honey. Whatever you want. It is all up to you."

"I'll set up the meeting for tomorrow," she said tapping away on her phone.

"Okay, but Emma's has to come."

She ripped away her attention from her phone to look up at me, "Why? Can't we hire a babysitter?"

"No, Selena, we can't. For one thing, I'm not leaving my daughter with a stranger, and second, I want to be a good father. A good father doesn't dump his kid off with someone else. She will be fine at the appointment. I'll talk to her okay? It's not a big deal."

She looked away from me rolling her eyes muttering, "Whatever."

"Really, Selena? Please don't start this."

She looked back up at me turning to get a better angle. "I'm not starting anything. I just don't see why we have to take YOUR daughter to OUR counseling session."

"Do you have any idea how hard I had to fight to get her? I'm not about to throw that out the window by dumping her with someone else. It's not even like she's one of those out of control 3 year olds, who run around and throw fits. She's very well behaved. You won't even know she's there. Calm down," I said shaking my head.

She slipped out of my hands, "I'm going to Taylor's. I'll be back later."

I stood up throwing my hands in the air, "Really? You are already leaving? Leaving isn't going to fix anything!"

"No, but it will give me some time to think and calm down. I don't want to say something I will regret," she stated grabbing her keys and her purse.

"When will you be home?" I asked walking closer to her.

"Honestly, I don't know. Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow. I'll text you when I decide."

"I still love you," I said in a soft whisper.

"Me too," she said before heading out the door not bothering to look back.

*Selena's POV*

"Well, look who finally decided to come back. I'm guessing things went well with Justin, seeing that I haven't seen you in 24 hours," Taylor greeted me as I walked through the door.

"Yeah, you can say that," I mumbled causing her to look at me in confusion. "We had a fight."

Her eyes got wider and she huffed a breath, "Already?"

I sighed throwing myself on the sofa pulling a plush pillow up to my chest. "You're telling me."

"What happened?"

"Okay so yesterday when I got there, I started yelling at him. He let me get all my anger out before he told me he needed me. We talked and things... happened. So we woke up and he told me he had to go to custody court and asked if I would come. I told him I was busy because honestly, I didn't want to see Kate and I don't know. You know how I am about Emma. Anyway so we went there and got that done and Justin won. Woo-hoo," I said without much enthusiasm. "So we got home put Emma to bed, we were doing great. Cuddling on the sofa and I told him we needed to go to counseling. He agreed but then said we would have to bring Emma. That pissed me off so I kind of jumped off the deep end. Thankfully, I got out of there before I said something I would really regret later."

She sighed and sat on the spot across from me, "Sel, I know you don't want to hear this but, Emma is a part of Justin's life. The quicker you move on from that the better your relationship with Justin will be. Do you really want to waste all this time fighting with him about something he can't control? I say you embrace it. Emma learned to love Justin quick, maybe you and her can do the same. Who know's maybe with her spending so much time with you, she'll start to see you in a motherly way."

I shook my head, letting out a breath, "No. No way."

"You won't know if you don't try," she commented.

I sighed and rested my chin on my knees, knowing she was right. I hated that fact that Justin had a child with someone other than me, but there was nothing I could do. It was before my time. I shouldn't let that ruin what Justin and I had/have. I loved him and no one was going to mess that up, and that was exactly what I was letting happen. I need to grow up and move on. I need to be a big girl and except the fact that things happen. People make mistakes and you grow from them.

I got out my phone and opened a new message.

Sorry for storming off. I just needed to think. I'm on my way home. See you when I get there. I love you.