Nothing But Trouble

NBT 12: Jhayden's Flashbacks

Jhayden's POV

After you left me hanging..

You don't know how much you've changed in the past 6 years..

I don't even know you, Jhayden.

Her words just won't leave my head as I am walking with no current destination. Sinusundan ko lang yung kalsada, hoping that it'll lead me somewhere. My legs took me to a park. Maraming bata ang naglalaro dito kasama ang pamilya nila.

Flashback

"Go clean the kitchen, Jhayden!" sigaw sa akin ng tatay ko.

"Linisin mo na rin yung buong bahay!"  sigaw naman sa akin ng nanay ko.

"Hindi ka lalabas ngayon ha!" sigaw nilang pareho. Agad naman akong pumunta sa kusina para linisin.

End of flashback

Family..That's something I never had. Well, I had one but, it didn't feel like a family. My parents didn't even love me. I never felt the love parents gave their children. My parents were never like that. They only cared about themselves. Why the fuck did they even bother in having me? Tss. Siguro para may gumawa ng mga gawain sa bahay. Ni hindi nga nila ako tinulungan. Lagi silang nagkukulong sa kwarto at hinahayaan lang ako. I felt like, I was just trash..I had two best friends, Aissa and James, who treated me like family, but still, I felt like trash..Until I met Shanice. She made me feel special. May naramdaman ako noong nakilala ko si Shanice na hindi ko pa nararamdaman kapag nasa bahay lang ako.

Naglakad ako papunta sa isang bench malapit sa pond. Habang naglalakad ako, iniiwasan ako ng mga tao. I know exactly the reason why. I mean, look at me. I look like an idiot with a few tattoo and piercings. Umupo na lang ako sa bench at nag-isip. Inisip ko lahat ng nangyari noong nakaraan. Noong magkaibigan pa kaming lahat..

Flashback

"Halika na, Jhayden!" sigaw sa akin ng best friend kong si Aissa.

"Saan ba tayo pupunta?" tanong ko kay Aissa. She's beautiful when she smiles..But not as beautiful as Shanice.

"Kay Shanice!" masiglang sigaw ni Aissa.

"A-Anong gagawin n-natin doon?" nahihiya kong tanong.

"Hmm. Ewan. Ikaw naman yung nagsabi kahapon na pumunta tayo kay Shanice ngayon." Aissa said with an innocent smile on her face.

End of flashback

Innocence..That is something I also never had. James, Aissa, Shanice and I, we weren't as innocent as we looked like when we were kids. We probably were the first kids in our town to actually commit crimes. We would steal stuff so that our family could live. Well, my parents didn't exactly need my 'help'.

Flashback

I was standing infront of a store holding a sign that says 'Will work for food'.

"As if he'll actually do that."

"He's probably just lying."

"You can not trust someone like him."

"People like him are never true to their words."