LOVE MYSELF - LOVE YOURSELF

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Stuff I've thought about my idol crush
I suddenly realized
He probably was not handsome.
His face was not pretty for the most people around me.
So I realized it was not his appearance that attracted me or others
It was his being
The way he smiled
The way he laughed
The way he joked around
The way his eyes looked at your soul from far away.
And how you felt happy with just looking at him.
It was not his face, nor his looks.
Nothing physical.
It was his soul that shined at me.
At everyone.
And even though I know I will never be able to get near to him,
I will support him from the distance
And be happy when he is happy
The same way he made me happy every time he smiled.
Because if that's not love than I don't know what love is.
And it's okay.
I prefer making mistakes and failing at trying to find out what love is
Than never being able to feel different kinds of love.
So it's okay if my love or his love is fake.
It's okay if I realize that later,
Because it is not a bad thing to give someone your love and support.
Just take care of yourself first.
Put yourself at first place
And put the ones you want to give your love to on second place.
Because it's more difficult to help someone who needs help
If you need help too,
Than to help someone who needs help
While you are in a good mental state.