LOVE MYSELF - LOVE YOURSELF

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Hi, I'm the author of this story and if you've read my story until this point I want to say thank you for your support :')

I honestly just wanted to tell, explain, idk, why I wrote this story and what kind of changes I might do to be able to give you better content.

First of all I want to tell you why I started writing this.

I actually started writing this story in (I think) Ferbuary 2018, after coming to the decision that to hate myself and to be a mess itself wouldn't bring anything to my life. You know, anxiety often appears because you think you are not doing or being enough, or when you compare yourself to others too much. (At least that's my personal experience, everyone is different.) To that time I had felt anxious for quite a while, I think it had been the year 2017 as a whole, but as time passed I started noticing that to be anxious and to do things with anxiety actually was what had been holding me back. At least it felt like that. After all, if I had thought less about certain stuff I wouldn't have stressed myself that much and I wouldn't have felt that bad maybe.

I started writing about positive thoughts, quotes I looked on the internet and tried to convince myself that everything would be alright if I gave my best at being myself.

But you know, life doesn't work like that.

Even though I felt like I had a better attitude to myself and to other things in general, I still felt like a living mess. You probably don't know, but I am quite self-critical so it took time to analyze my thoughts.

To write this story has literally been my way to give myself therapy. After all that's what I have been having to do all the time. Also the reason which for I'm writing this is to tell people that life gets better.

I don't know how bad it is for other people. I bet there are persons with a way worse situation than me, but I think a big part of healing is wanting to heal and actively trying to flee from the thought-cycle you got used to.

It's funny because when I think of myself in the past, I always think that I was a bad person and that I don't know how I even had persons that stayed with me, but it happens to all the versions of me. Even the version of me I was one month ago. I certainly know that even though I can't change the past, I can work on the present and define my future as a person, so I think everyone can too.

I know I'm no one to be saying this to most people,

But for me I think I'm more worth than I had thought I was a year ago.

And you are more worth than you've ever known.

Healing is a process.

Sorry for making this dramatic lol

My future plans for this story will be to change everything.

I don't know what I will leave like it is or what I will put in the place of what I will leave out, but since the story got more views than I thought it would I think it needs some actualizations.

Again,

Thank you a lot💖🙇‍♀️

Al N.