LOVE MYSELF - LOVE YOURSELF

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You know, I want to be loved. Who doesn't? But you know what? Fuck it. I'm going to love myself. I'm going to stop making out excuses or reasons which for I can't love myself. Because I deserve to be loved. And because if I can't love myself I don't know if somebody else cans. I will fill myself with optimism and positive thoughts. I will stop caring about what every single persons thinks about me because nobody is perfect and not everything is my fault. I can't change what has already happened but I can change my future. And if today wasn't a good day, tomorrow the sun will come up again and I will try my best again. I will hope for better days and I will say what I want to say when I want to. I will treat my body right and though I will love myself I will tell the ones I love that I love them and the ones that I like that I like them. I will give my best to stay away from toxic people that surround me and I will meet more often the people that are important to me that I know I mean something to them. I do not have to have a perfect day or a perfect week because nobody truly has, but I will give the best of me to try making every day a good day or at least a positive day. And when the sky is full of clouds I will hope for rain and when the sky is clear I will hope for a hot day. When it's cold I will hope it snows and when the snow goes away I will hope for green leaves and colourful flowers. I will be grateful for what I have and I will try giving more to the ones that need more. I will look after what is the best for me and I will try not having high expectation to myself. I do not have the duty to fulfil everyone's expectations and I do not have the duty to be the best. I will love myself, but if there are days where I just want to cry, I will cry it all out instead of keeping it inside and I will try my best the next day. Because I want to be happy and I deserve to be happy but I do no HAVE to be happy. I will treat myself the way I treat others and I will treat myself the way I want others to treat themselves. I will take myself out of this sh*t I'm into. I will save myself, because nobody else can help me. Nor BTS nor my friend. Because no matter how much she wants to help me, I she can't help someone who doesn't want to get help. A blind person won't know that he doesn't see if he dos not try opening his eyes first. So I will do this for myself but if I do need help I will ask for it. Because I don't need to do everything for myself.
I want to fall in love with myself. I want to like me, so that I won't care if someone says he doesn't like me. Because I will know that it's not my fault and that I am worth to be loved.