Still pretty??? Mileven ??

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Mikes POV
I tried to sleep. I really did. But I just couldn't. It was so awful. I regretted everything. And I wondered if she actually meant what she said about wishing we weren't together. I don't blame her. I'm jealous, possessive idiot that potentially just lost the love of his life. I curled into a ball and slid into a light sleep, tiring myself out from crying so much.
*time skip to about 7 in the morning*
I woke up on my bed, in my boxers, the covers pulled up to my chin. I looked around me and rubbed my head. My eyes were sore from crying and I had a throbbing headache. Did I come back in? I can't even remember.
Els POV
I had put him in bed and cleared the roof out of guilt. It took all of my willpower to walk out of the door again and not stay with him. I think he needs me as much as I need him. I was never going to forgive myself for the pain I put him through. A tear fell down my cheek.
"Hey you ok?"
"Um yeah, just hayfever." I said wiping my eye and putting on my best fake smile.
"Good," He said with a smile taking my hand as he drove. I looked down at our hands and then out of the window, letting my forced smile drop. He looked over.
"Hey. I know. I know." He said rubbing my hand with his thumb. I looked at him, teary eyed and sad faced and broken. He really really didn't know.
Mikes POV
Oh no. My hoodie was folded up and ontop of it lay a note and the ring I gave to el last night. The note read:
"First of all, I'm sorry. I know you probably don't want anything to do with me anymore, so I forced myself to leave. You are completely and utterly forgiven for everything. I've gone for a couple of days, since both of us need time to clear our heads and be away from eachother for a while. I didn't mean anything I said and I don't expect you to forgive me. Or ever talk to me again. So I just want you to know I will always love you no matter what and you made my life so much better. So thank you. ~ always and forever, YOUR el xxx"
El no please no I want you, need you back.
"El I'm so sorry... so sorry..." I whispered to myself, clutching the ring and note as I slid down my dresser and broke into a fresh batch of tears, resting my head between my knees and bringing my arms behind my neck. I cried and tried to reach el in my head. I couldn't. After about an hour I just felt empty. I went to have a shower to clear my head and think about what had gone on. I had stayed in for well over an hour, completely zoned out of the world and muttering to myself. The water ran cold and soothing down my back and chest and I leaned my back against the shower wall. I went from feeling hollow, to feeling full of sadness in under a second as I slid down onto the floor and slowly curled up in the corner of the tub, the water still trickling steadily. I brought my knees to my chest and my head fell limp between my legs, my shaking hands gripping my soaking hair. I cried silently and painfully and let out a broken yell as I smashed my fist against the tiled walls in empty anger. I didn't know if I was sad, angry or emotionless anymore. I went through all three stages of mike depression in about a minute. I took a couple of deep breaths in and out and forced myself out of the shower with trembling limbs and as soon as I got out I fell to the cold floor and just felt too broken to do anything. I laid there, exhausted from all the crying and only got up after about 20 minutes. I walked miserably to my room and threw on a hoodie and a pair of ripped jeans and left my hair wet as it stuck out at every angle. I heard a knock at the door and dragged myself out of the blanket fort and to the door. I didn't expect mom dad and Nancy to be back till tomorrow as they've gone out with all the parents to wherever wherever. I trudged to the door and opened it and turned straight back round to head back down to the basement. Then I heard a voice I know all too well and spun around, my mouth hung open.

A\N YEAH THATS IT THIS MILEVEN DEPRESSION THO 😭 SORRY YOUS, KK ILY ALL BYEEEE XXX