Still pretty??? Mileven ??

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Mikes POV
"Eleven? Upstairs. Now." I told her. She immediately wriggled from jacks grip and shut her legs together tight. I knew why. She was obviously wet for jack and didn't want me to know. She began meekly following me, before dick tree piped up and grabbed her wrist.
"Hey, you can fuck off. You don't get to tell her what to do anymore. Jane? If you want to stay with me, just say." He said. He stood in a weird position and I glanced down to see a huge boner. Even in this circumstance I fought hard not to laugh. El looked down at his hand still on her wrist.
"Jack, I~"
"Eleven, now." I said. She tried to pull her hand away from jack but he wouldn't let go. I looked up at him with an expression of ice and danger.
"I dare you to touch her again," I snarled. He looked me dead in the eyes for about two seconds before turning and stalking off, letting els hand fall limp.
"Mike, I can~"
"Explain? Well, you don't need to. Now come." I said, my voice low and angry. I marched up to the attic bedroom that we had almost fucked in as el pattered behind me.
Els POV
I shut the door behind us and lingered looking at the doorknob for a few seconds, trying to stall as much as possible. I turned around after about 5 seconds to see mike, looming over me like a sinister yet alluring wolf, ready to tear his prey to pieces. 
"What the fuck was that?" He growled.
"I... I already told you... I have to pretend mike. It's for will, you know what's going on, it's all just a pretence, I~" I said rapidly, cut of by mikes fist slamming into the door about an inch away from my head. I gasped and a tear slipped down my face.
"So, what you kept up the pretence huh? Even in your head? I think your forgetting that you gave me  the ability to read your thoughts Eleven!" He yelled. I was petrified. I've never been this scared of him in my life.
"Mike, please, I~" I began, crying, putting a hand on his chest.
"Don't fucking touch me, do you understand?" He growled. I snatched my hand back, terrified of what he might do if I didn't.
"You seriously expect me to believe that you did this for will? That it's all just fake? No ones that good at acting sweetie." He snarled. "You are so fucking unbelievable! I tell you how I feel, how I've been feeling for the past 6 years and you don't even say a word, then you go off and make out with jack somewhere? And don't you dare tell me that that was for will because you and I both know it wasn't, ok eleven, it wasn't! I can hear your thoughts eleven, I know what you were thinking! That you were going to give yourself to jack? Loose your virginity to him?" He had tears in his eyes now. "You should know what you mean to me, eleven! You are mine! Only I can take that from you!" it was weird to think that him saying something as simple as my full name instead of the shortened version he thought of could hurt so fucking much.
"Mike, please!" I wept.
"Don't even! Do you have any idea how much this so hurting me? How much this is tearing me apart? How much this is..." he trailed off, staring intently at me. I reached a hand up to my neck to see what he was staring at, but he just grabbed my wrist and tore my hand away from my neck. He didn't let go though even when it was by my side. I felt a tug in my heart. How could I have done this? To this wonderful, beautiful, kind, selfless boy that saved me numerous times from numerous things, the boy who meant the world to me, who made me feel things no one else could. How could I make him this angry? Be this fucking selfish by liking jack? Fuck.
Mikes POV
A hickey. He had marked what was mine. I knew it wasn't one I left because it was definitely new. I'm going to shit him up. I'm going to properly shit him up! I glanced out of the window for a second and realized it was deep into the night. It was around 4 o'clock in the morning, yet no one was sleeping. Unless you count Richie and Eddie who were probably sleeping  together if you catch my drift. I was so confused. I didn't know if I was burning mad and wanted to punch something, or if I was heartbroken and I wanted to curl in a ball on the floor and cry. I did neither. I stood and stared down at el, my girlfriend who, even when she is crying her eyes out and obviously scared out of her mind, still managed to look beautiful. I don't let her know I'm going soft. It's so unfair. Id forgive her for anything after a few minutes and just seeing her face. I couldn't let her know that though.
"tell me. tell me right now that you did all this for will. tell me that you feel no attraction to jack and i will believe you. tell me that you were only acting an what happened between you and jack meant nothing to you. tell me that, and I'll trust you." I said. she looked at the ground, not saying a word. she may have kissed jack, but I knew she would never lie to my face. more tears trickled down her face and I struggled to stay still and silent, though I was on the verge of curling up and crying and screaming and throwing things. specifically rocks at jacks head.
"fucking hell, eleven!" I almost winced at the sound of my own voice. it sounded evil and cruel and full of hatred. I knew that el was sorry. I knew she regretted what she did, and that she wishes she didn't have feelings for jack. I know that shes willing to hide her true feelings, and she willing to never talk to jack again if it meant I wouldn't be mad at her. i knew how much she was hurting over what she did, and that she loves me and I mean the world to her.But then, it almost broke my defensive wall around my emotions when I saw how scared she was. scared of me.
"Why the fuck would you do that to me? you told me to trust you and I did. so why would you... I don't even know anymore, eleven. I just... I need some time, ok?" i said with a sigh, running my hands through my hair, making it stand on end.
"Some time... Away from me?" she asked quietly, her voice breaking as she twisted the ends of her sleeves in her hands, her eyes red and face blotchy from the crying, more tears falling from her swollen eyes. I just stared at her for a moment.
"How... how could you ever even think that?" I asked, my voice croaky and closer to tears now than I had been this whole time.
"what I did to you... that was... I mean that was awful. And what makes it that much worse is that I did it to you. the person that means more to me than I can even comprehend. I get it. if you don't wanna be with me anymore, I mean. what I did, it was unforgivable, so I don't expect you to forgive it. jut please, remember that I love you more than anything, I have since the day you found me in that forest and i will till the end of time. you have made my life so much better just by simply existing.you make me the happiest girl alive and you make me feel things that no one else will ever be able to make me feel and I love you with all of my heart, no matter what happens, I will always have your back and  I will always always love you. you have always been there for me, as a best friend, as a boyfriend, as a hero, as a soulmate. no one could even come close to replacing you. I will never love someone as much as I love you and that's a promise. I will always have a special place in my heart reserved for you and no one can ever take that away fro me. you are literally my everything, for without you I would be nothing. before you came along, I was so scared. of everything, but you gave me strength and courage and you just... I'm sorry..." she said, sniffling ad hiccuping the whole way though and crumbling to the floor as she finished, almost drowning in er own tears. I knew she meant what she said. and I couldn't bear the sight of my baby crying on the floor. I wasn't even going to try and stop the tears now,  and I scooped her up and held her tight in my arms and carried her over to the bed. I laid down, spooning her and gripping hr as if she were a priceless diamond and i couldn't bear to let go. but the difference was, el meant so much more to me than a priceless diamond ever would.
"i love you so much, el." I whispered into her hair. she inhaled sharply.
"what?"
"you... you called me el again..." she whispered, sounding  mix between overjoyed and heartbroken. I held her tight in my arms as we drifted to sleep, exhausted from the long day and all the crying.

A/N OK SO I THINK THAT MAYBE, MILEVEN IS BACK OK??? PROBABLY... RIGHT? ANYWAYS ILY ALL BYEEEEEEE XXX