White Lines

Just a filler for you to read while i write the next chapter.

I wrote that I was fine while blood dripped down my arms.

A suicide note. That was the last thing that he wanted to see on his brother's nightstand. He picked it up, not wanting to know what it said, but read it anyway

Just a scrape

Just a scratch.

What's that mark?

It's just my cat.

Just another excuse

Just another lie.

What's with the bracelets?

Just fashion, why?

Just a tear

Just a scream.

Why are you crying?

Just a bad dream.

But it's not just a scrape, a tear, or a lie.

It's always 'just one more'

Until you die...

The note slipped from his fingers as he read the last words. He ran from the room, suddenly forgetting the layout if the house. He searched every room until he got to the bathroom on the bottom floor of his brother's house--it was shut and locked.

He kicked the door one good time, busting the lock and opening the door. His legs instinctively forced him forward at the sight of the red stained floor. But what scared him most was what accompanied the crimson colored stain--Noctis.

Terrified, Gabriel pulled out his phone and called 911. It wasn't the first time something like this had happened, but the third. Twice in England, and then this time.

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There was a deafening pounding in Noctis's ears as he opened his eyes. The white light of the hospital room made him squint as his eyes adjusted. He looked down at his right wrist, white bandages covered from the base of his hand to almost his elbow. When he tried to move his left hand though, he realized that someone had grasped it. He looked to see who it was to find

Gabriel with his head on the bedside, asleep.

He chuckled to himself and squeezed the young man's hand, "Hey asshat, you need to wake up."

Gabriel looked up and Noctis could almost see him stop breathing.

"You're awake."

"Yeah, I guess I am." Noctis said with a sigh.

"Why do you sound so--disappointed?"

"I just...gave up when I knew that someone was there for me...I..."

"What? spit it out!" Gabriel said impatiently.

"I don't deserve someone like you." Noctis mumbled, a light pink on his cheeks as he looked away.

"You're right, shitface, you don't deserve me. But, you need me. So it's okay."

They sat in silence for a moment.

"You're not sending me to a mental facility are you?" Noctis asked.

"Hell no! I don't blame you for what you did knowing your family."

"Thanks." Noctis ran his thumb over the back of Gabriel's hand and played with his fingers, "Hey, can I ask something?"

"Yeah sure." Gabriel said.

"Do you ever get...tired of me?" He was hesitant to ask in fear of the answer.

An almost stunned silence went through the hospital room, "what kind of question is that? of course I get tired of you, you are the most annoying, egotistical douche I know."

"Oh."

"I didn't say that it was a bad thing." Gabriel said, sitting in the edge of the bed.

Noctis didn't say anything, only continued to play with Gabriel's fingers. Gabriel pulled. Back his hand and cupped Noctis face, forcing him to look at him.

"I swear on my life that I'll never get tired of you. It kills me to see you in a hospital when I'm helpless to do anything about it. You aren't annoying, I was just picking at you."

Noctis pulled back and let out a small humph, looking away from Gabriel. No matter how much he pleaded with him, Noctis wouldn't look at Gabriel or talk.

"Don't be like that, I know what you want. But you're not getting it unless you look at me."

Noctis rolled his eyes and looked at Gabriel who lightly kissed his forehead, "now is that apology good enough?"

"I guess that will do."

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Just a little bit if Boyxboy action.

Ok so don't judge I needed proof that they were gay at one point and this was the most adorable thing ever.

I think I should tell what readers I do have about something.

Noctis self harmed because of the constant abuse from his family. The reason he tried to commit suicide three times was because his FAMILY told him that he would be better off dead and he believed them. His friends (still siblings but he counts them as friends) Gabriel(who was adopted) and Keith were the only ones who cared about him in his ENTIRE FAMILY after his dad left.

Just a reminder that HE THOUGHT HE HURT GABRIEL WHEN HE TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF AND HE COULDN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF POTENTIALLY LOSING HIM. THAT IS WHY NOCTIS WAS QUIET. HE WAS WAITING FOR HIM TO LEAVE.