Denial

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HOLY SACK OF ASS. I get on here after a few days and see an ass load of notifications! You all are so amazing ;__; Thank you so much for the reads, votes and followers! <3 *Ugly crying*


YES THAT PICTURE ABOVE IS ME, I'M SORRY OKAY XDD I JUST LOVE MY HUSBANDO.


I have only two more requests for Gundham left, so I'll be opening those soon. Two others no one gave me any ideas and I don't have any direction for them?? Sorry ;___; If I get a small plot or some ideas, I'll gladly do those two.


This was requested by DollyMilly, thank you so much for requesting! I hope this is satisfactory! <3


You are a very sweet lady. Literally whoever looked your way you would send them a pleasant smile which was very contagious. It's like you had no mean bone in your perfect body. Hell, you were even friends with the Yakuza himself, Fuyuhiko and the Twat Queen, Hiyoko. So why was one guy not able to receive your kindness? It was a silly reason really. You were always so scared to get close to anyone due to the fear of getting your heart broken, so what was your strategy? Pretending to hate them. Was this the best approach? Probably not, but it usually worked so you stuck to it. Deep down you hated acting like this, but you had to protect your heart.


Unfortunately the man that had stolen your heart and received your false hatred was none other than Gundham Tanaka. He was so very sweet with a pure heart and gentle, it tore you apart to act like this. So many times you almost just cracked and gave in, wanting nothing more than to be close to him, but you just couldn't break down your walls enough to do it. 'Maybe acting like this to such a kind soul is hurting me more than pretending to hate him..'  You sighed as you sat down for class waiting for Chisa to arrive, you mindlessly staring out the window as your mind raced. "Hellooooo!" You jumped lightly hearing Ibuki's loud voice, but smiled at her as her pink orbs for eyes glinted. "Ibuki is happy that Y/N is here!" You giggled as you nodded to her. "I'm happy to see you too Ibuki, how are you this morning?" You asked sweetly as you did with everyone. 'Except for him...'


Ibuki only grinned more as she plopped down in her chair in front of your desk. "Ibuki is great!" She cheered as you laughed, this girls energy was unstoppable. As you two chatted about your weeks plans and the latest homework assignment, more of your friends walked in as the conversation grew. Gundham had walked in during your conversation, but of course you were no longer paying any attention to any words being said. Your E/C eyes began to follow your crush on their own accord, your heartbeat escalating at a high frequency with each step he took making him get closer to you. As he did his own mismatched eyes landed on you, a hard glare on his face. You of course threw on that fake yet extremely convincing glare of disgust before you looked away from him and back to your friends pretending to be interested in their conversation again. 'How long can I keep this act up? Not like it matters, he doesn't like me either.'


At lunchtime you decided to be alone for the day to think. 'No wonder I've never had a boyfriend...I don't give anyone a chance, I just assume they'll all break my heart..'  You sighed as you didn't even touch your food, you had lost your appetite. As you were deep in thought your hand had brushed against something fuzzy causing you to look down by your bento box. Surprise filled you as you saw a chubby golden tan hamster munching on your rice balls. 'What on Earth....Oh shit, this is one of his hamsters...'  You felt your heart drop, but you just couldn't resist reaching down using the back of your fingers to stroke the hamsters fur. He was very soft and as you petted him, he squeaked in delight as he looked up at you curiously before he continued to eat your food. "You're so cute.." You cooed as you continued to pet him until a deep voice had cleared his throat.


Looking up at the sudden noise, you felt your whole body tense as you became very nervous. "I believe one of my Deva's has stumbled upon your feast." He said bluntly, a hard stare on his face. Taking your hand away from the said Deva, you looked away and shrugged a shoulder. "Appears so." You said in a bored tone, though you felt your heart pulse in guilt again. There was an awkward silence before Gundham decided to bravely break it. "Forgive my unwanted presence Y/N, but I wish to understand your undying hatred towards me." Guilt, even more guilt filled you up like a glass of water. "I know that I am a demon and most of you mortals do not desire such company, however, may I ask what I have done to burn the bridge that could have lead us to one another?" His voice was calm and you loved his eccentric speech. To your horror, your walls were beginning to crumble.


"U-Uhm..." You muttered nervously, your fingers playing with a loose string on your uniform top. "I just..." His hamster had scurried over to him crawling up his arm and into his coat before you sighed. He busted through your defenses. "I don't hate you..." You finally whispered, Gundham's brow raising in confusion. "I don't want to act so mean towards you, I just...have to." Now he was really lost. "Have to? Is this some type of protection spell you must use against me?" He questioned as you quickly shook your head. "No no, nothing like that. I....Ilikeyou." You rushed together looking down and of course he didn't hear you. "Pardon?" He asked perplexed as you shook in nerves before looking up and away from him. "I said I like you! Okay? I just uhh....well shit..."


Gundham's eyes widened as his face heated up a shy pink, his heart hammering just as fast as yours was. "I....I don't want to get hurt, so I pretended to hate you, alright? I know it's stupid and you don't like me, that's fine. I'm going to go and hide under a rock for the rest of my life now. Bye." You quickly shoved your bento in your backpack, swinging that over your shoulder and went to run off until your wrist was gently grabbed by a warm hand. You gasped as you turned around seeing a pink faced Gundham, his furrowed brow causing a nervous stare as he looked away. "Please, halt your fleeing." You blinked as you were now confused. What could he want to say? "I....I now understand your behavior towards me and I am relieved to hear that you do not truly despise me.." You blinked as he continued timidly. "I....I too have caught these feelings for you Y/N and though I do comprehend such fears of yours, please allow me to melt those away, for I have no intentions to harm you, I only want to cherish you."


He was dying at this point; heart in his throat, face and ears red as he attempted to hide it with his scarf. His whole body was heating up in nerves, he has never expressed himself this openly before, he was just so happy you didn't actually hate him. This little game of false hatred can end now. You were in complete shock. It took you a few minutes to snap back to reality. You didn't even know what to say so you just timidly embraced him, your red face hiding in his warm chest. Inhaling the scent of cinnamon and hamster food, you've never felt safer. He stiffened holding his hands up not knowing what to do at first, but slowly he relaxed as he wrapped his own arms around your middle holding you close. "And I want to cherish you..." You whispered as you felt him leave a shy kiss on the top of your head. "Then I shall grant your wish, my beloved."


I DON'T THINK THIS WAS GOOD? Fuck I'm sorry! D: I hope it was what you wanted!!! Thank you all so much for reading <3


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