Crystal Clear

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

Keith

I decided that I wasn't going to listen to my mom. I mean, what guy wants to sit around all day and do nothing, living under his mother's roof, with a baby, a girlfriend and no job. I just sound pathetic. And even if something did happen between Cara and I, She'd most likely take the baby back to her parents place. I just feel spoiled. Yah my dads got tons of cash in his account, but I'm tired of feeding off of him and getting pampered. I want to work for my money. I want to be on my own. In my own home. I love my mom, and I don't want to just leave her here but...me and Cara are most likely going to start a life together. I've been thinking a lot and, I think I want to marry her. I mean I'm 18 now and I know she's 17 but I really love her. And we're having a baby, We just have to be a family.

I haven't seen Cara all week. She's been staying at Rebbecca's place with Ava. I literally haven't seen her at all. She calls me and texts me everyday, but it just isn't the same. Alex has been staying here with me. We talked a lot about Ava being pregnant. He's just not okay with it at all. I was shocked when I found out, but I eventually gave in and told her I loved her. I don't want to be a father this young, but I'm going to be. I'm not going to let Cara do this on her own. I tried to tell Alex that, but he's a different kind of guy.

"I don't want to be tied down Keith! I'm 18, I'm a man! I want to live my life as a young man." He was throwing a basketball at my wall, something that drives my mom nuts.

"Al, could you cut that out?" I say.

"Focus Keith! This is serious!" I put both my hands up as a surrender and he glared at me.

"Keith, I don't want to be a dad." I shook my head. I didn't know what to say to him. Now, a girl would say, 'You can do it! Everything's going to be fine hun, totally, OMG!' But I'm a dude. And I'm his best friend. I'm not going to lie to him, but if I tell him the truth...

"Alex, I'm going to tell you the truth," I decide to tell him obviously. "I'm not going to tell you that everything will be okay. But I do have one question. Are you in love with Ava?" He looked at me seriously, shook his head and said no.

"So why did you have sex with her!?"

"I'm a guy Keith! I have needs! There is most likely no guy out there in the world at the age of 18 that has sex with a girl for love. You are the only phsyco I know who would do some stupid crap like that. And look where you got. Cara's pregnant!"

"Look at you! A girl you don't love or probably don't even care about, is in love with you, and is pregnant with your child! You're just as stupid and pathetic as I am!"

"Hey, why don't you get your life in check before you want to give me all this stupid drama about your life. All I know is I'm not stupid enough to be stuck with some obssessive chick and be a father at 18!"

"It's funny how YOU were the one at my door crying, talking about 'Keith, help me out man, I need you!' Man what kinda pathetic crap is that!?" He stared at me and threw the basketball out my window. I yelled at him and shoved him.

"What's wrong with you dude!?" I yell.

"Just stay away from me and don't bother me about Ava again. I'm not going to be a dad!" With that he slammed my door and left my house. I was so mad! He was just going to be a dead beat, having to pay child support and the kid not knowing who their father is. He's not going to want anything to do with that baby. Now, I'm not a softy or a punk. I'm not a pushover either. But I am a good guy and I will respect a girl. I asked Cara if she wanted to have sex. I knew her beliefs. I knew she and Ava made a pact to stay virgins until marriage. That's why I asked. I would have waited, because I love her. And yeah, I have my needs and desires. I'm a guy. But I'm not going to let that get the best of me! Alex is, like I said, a different kind of guy. I wonder what Ava is going to do and if she's okay.