I Guess I'm Sorry [S.M]

Chapter 9

Shawn's POV

I woke up to the cold air beside me. No Arya. I looked on my phone and saw that the clock had just passed 6 am. I dragged myself out of bed and into the living room. There she was: one the balcony. In my hoodie, looking out into the sunrise. I walked over to the balcony door and walked out.

"Hey." I said just to not scare the shit out of her. I did it anyway, she jumped and turned around. "Hey..."

"When did you wake up?" I asked, not remembering her sneaking out earlier.

"I didn't." she said silently. "What do you mean? Didn't you get any sleep?"

"No." she said still looking on the sunrise. "Hunny please tell me what's on your mind..." I said, trying to get her to tell me what's bothering her.

"What if-" but her voice cracked. "Babe you're not pregnant, trust me..." I said.

"You can't know that! What if I am Shawn?!" she screamed, tears flowing down her rose red cheeks.

"Hey if you're so unsure, we could just buy a test you know." I said to calm her down. "But the thing is I'm not ready for it..." she answered. "Well then don't, and if you feel nauseous again, you can take a test." I told her.
"Okay."

"Do you want some hot coco? I make the best!" I asked, hoping she would say yes because I craved some myself.
"Yes please."
"Okay two hot coco's coming up!" I said and went back in to make them. I poured the coco in two cups and returned to Arya on the balcony. We drank our drinks in silence. We spent the whole day together, just fooling around and having fun in her apartment.

"Arya I think I should go home now..." I said around six o'clock.

"Nooooo, stay with meeeee." she said, laying her head on my lap. "My sister's gone until tomorrow anyway. You can stay and we can have some fun..." she said, wiggling her eyebrows.

"Babe... You were so afraid you're pregnant and then you wanna have more fun?" I asked.

"Maybe not... but please don't go!"

"Okay, but I'm not sure if I can stay till tomorrow, it's Monday and Andrew probably wants me in the studio..." Shawn said.

"You can sleep the night and leave early tomorrow morning?" I said, trying to convince him to stay. "Ugh fine! I'm so weak for you it's annoying." he said and went out on the balcony. I followed him and snaked my tiny arms around his waist.

"What's on your mind?"

"Everything... this life is so stressful you know? I know I chose this life, but damn it's hard!"

"I know baby, I've noticed." I said.

We stood in silence for a long time, then Shawn spoke:

"It kinda hurt when Hailey cheated on me, like before I met you, I thought she was the love of my life... She obviously didn't think the same."

"Well... Now you have me!" I smiled at him, trying to lighten the mood that fell over us. "Yeah, now I have you and I feel complete." he said and turned around. He leaned in and kissed my lips softly. He pulled away and looked me in the eyes.

"I love you."

The words didn't come to me now either, I just stroked his cheek with my hand and kissed him again.

"Can we just go inside and lay in bed and watch Netflix for the rest of the day?" I asked him. "Of course we can." he answered and we went inside and into bed. We laid in bed for the rest of the evening and eventually fell asleep.

Sadly it didn't last for me, after a couple of hours I woke up. And I felt nauseous. No. This can't be true. I didn't want to wake up Shawn, so I quietly snuck out, and into the bathroom. I drank some water, but it didn't go away. What am I supposed to do? It just got worse and suddenly I hung over the toilet. I got up and texted Nicki, I hope she knows what I can do.

She doesn't answer, it's the middle of the night so I doesn't expect anything else. The feeling gets worse and I lean against the wall and slowly slide down. At the end I find myself laying on the bathroom floor, my minds blurs, then it all went black.

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