I Guess I'm Sorry [S.M]

Chapter 57

Shawn's POV

I laid in my bed after Arya left. She was so beautiful and I knew I felt attracted to her, I was just so fucking angry that I didn't remember her. I married her, and I couldn't even remember who she was!

My doctors said I could leave tomorrow, and to be honest, I didn't know where to go. I knew I had my apartment, but Arya lived there and I don't know if it would be weird if I lived there. And I didn't want to put Arya through more pain, which she would obviously go through if I came home. She would remember how I was before and then she would be sad that I'm not that Shawn anymore. But on the other hand, it could trigger my memories...

I wanted to call her and ask her if I could come home, but right before I dialed her number, I changed my mind. Instead I dialed my mums number. She answered right away and we made a deal that she is coming to pick me up and bring me home tomorrow. Home to Pickering.

Arya's POV

I picked up the phone and answered Jack.

A: Hey Jack

J: Hey, I heard Shawn's awake... how is he? And have you told him about uh-

I knew he was gonna ask about our night and I also heard the awkwardness in his voice. I interrupted him.

A: no, he doesn't remember me... he have a memory loss. He can only remember up till a few months before he met me.

I said in the most monotonous way I could.

J: oh, Arya I'm so sorry. I wish I could do something for you...

A: well I don't know if you can... but thanks anyway.

That was the basically the whole conversation, and after some small talk we hung up.

Instead of sitting around al day and depress about my miserable life, I decided to do some work. I mailed some mail to my manager and answered a couple of mails, wrote down some ideas I had for my next album. It has been over a year since I dropped my last album and even though I hadn't been on tour, my fan base were still rising. I decided to make a YouTube video too. I haven't been on for a long while and I made a video just explaining that I will log out for a while and that I have a lot on my mind.

I wanted to quit YouTube for good, but I decided not to. It was were everything started and I might just take a break from it.

The last thing I wanted to get done was to continue my online classes of college. I did it back when I was 19, but paused them when I got signed to Island. But now that I have a lot of free time, I wanted to fill my mind as much as possible so I didn't get depressed.

Later that day, I walked down to the gym in my apartment Building and worked out. I haven't really pushed myself recently when it came to training, but today was the day. I worked out for over an hour and I felt better than ever.

When I got back to the apartment, the clock was already 9 pm. I knew I didn't have dinner, but I wasn't hungry anyway so I went straight to bed. It had been a very long day and I was exhausted.

I walked into the bedroom and changed my clothes into just underwear and one of Shawn's hoodies. Then I jumped into the big bed and watched the rest of the sunset through the floor-to-roof window.

My mind was kinda wild now too, Shawn actually woke up today... after they said he probably wouldn't. That was against all odds, but he did it anyway. He might not have his memory, but he can regain it.

The next morning I was woken up by my phone ringing. It was Karen.

A: hi Karen, what's up?

K: hi hunny, I was just on my way to pick up Shawn. He's coming home today and he decided to go home to us because he thought it might be a little difficult for you to have him home... but I wanted to ask you if you want him there? It could trigger his memory, but it could also be hard...

A: oh um, I don't know... why don't you take him home to Pickering and all of you can come down here for dinner? I don't want to sound rude or anything, but I don't want him here hehe, but I want to try and trigger his memory, so therefore the dinner. That way he could come here and be with us and we'll see how it goes.

K: yes that sounds good. Okay, when do you want us there?

A: maybe at seven?

K: yes of course, we'll all be there! See you soon Arya.

A: Yeah, see ya.

I said and hung up. I don't know how I'm supposed to cook for six people, me included? Meh, maybe I'll just order something.

I got up from bed and took a nice, long shower. After the shower, I got out and made myself a cup of coffee.

When I poured it into my mug I caught myself humming to 'there's nothin' holding me back'. I got a little shocked by it, but also happy. I stopped in my tracks and just looked out of the window. I was starting to get happy again. Even though it broke my heart to know that Shawn didn't remember me, I was still so happy that he was awake and doing well.

After I drank my coffee I went to the store. If I was having a dinner party, I needed something to serve. I decided to cook myself and make a big casserole of curry. I knew my family liked spicy food, so I knew it would go smoothly.

I got all my groceries and went for the cashier. When I packed up my groceries I heard someone call my name. I looked up and saw Jack.

"Hi Jack!" I said and walked over and gave him a hug.

"Hey Arya, how are you? Are you holding up with everything that's going on?" He asked caring.

"Yeah, I'm fine, life's just a mess right now, but I'll manage." I said, mostly trying to convince myself that it's going to be alright.

Been gone for a bit, sorry, enjoy tho

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