I Guess I'm Sorry [S.M]

Chapter 68

Arya's POV

"Bye!" I said and waved at the doctor. I left the clinic and started to walk into the direction of my home.

I remembered that I had to buy some supplies for Shawn and then turned left the next street to drop by a supermarket.

I roamed around the store and found tea, honey, painkillers and medicine for him and the I headed over to the cashier.

I paid and was on my way out of the shop when I crashed into someone.

It was no other than Jack Johnson.

"Jack! Hey..." I said surprised.

"Uh... hi." Was all he said as he tried to walk past me.

I quickly scanned him with my eyes. He stood still for a second and looked kinda embarrassed.

His hair was untidy under his beanie and he had dark circles under his eyes. His skin was pale and he looked skinny.

I looked down at his arms where one of his sleeves were up.

I noticed a few red dots that reminded me of... needle holes?

He noticed me looking at his arm and he silently pulled down his sleeve while looking at me.

"You look... go-" I was quickly interrupted by him.

"Don't say I look good, cause we both know I don't. Go away, you won't make it better..." he said and was about to walk away again, but I stopped him.

"Please don't, I just want to make sure you are alright." I said.

"Well I'm not, and it's because of you to be honest." He said and ripped his arm out of my grasp and disappeared into the store.

He was absolutely trying to guilt trip me, and it was working. The guilt came creeping up on me and started to eat it's way into my heart and mind.

I was instantly becoming worried about him and as I slowly walked home, I called Jack Gilinsky to talk about Johnson.

Gilinsky: Arya? Hey long time since we talked!

He said cheerful.

A: Yeah hi, um I actually called because I wanted to talk about Johnson...

G: oh, well first off I just want to tell you that I know what happened and I'm just sorry for both of you.

A: no don't think about me, feel sorry for him, I played him, it's all on me.

G: no it's not, you lost Shawn for a moment, the whole world thought he would never wake up...

A: Yeah, but he did and-and the thing between Jack and I should never have happened. But the reason I called is because I bumped into him just now and I'm not sure, but he had something on his arm... it looked like needle holes, so I need to know: is he on drugs?

Gilinsky just sighed in the other end.

G: I promised not to tell anyone...

My heart broke in a million pieces. This is all my fault.

A: oh my god.... this is all my fault.

G: no! No it's not! I don't know if you know, but he have a history with drugs, I hate that he does it, but I don't know how I can help him, so the least I can do is make sure he's not putting himself or others in danger...

A: but he is! He's on drugs! If that's not danger in your eyes, I don't know what is. We have to get him to stop, and that ASAP!

And with that I hung up. I was even more worried now than I've been before. If he is the father to this baby, what the hell do I do if he's a drug addict? My mind was spinning and I felt dizzy.

I quickly ran into a small street, full of dumpsters. I hung over one of them and puked my guts out.

When I was done I quickly looked around myself and back to the street I came from; seemed like no one saw me, and thank god for that.

I quickly contained myself and walked back into the bigger street. I walked back to the street Shawn and I were living in and I slowed down when I reached our building.

I went up to our apartment and unlocked the door.

"Hey babe I'm home." I called out so Shawn would know I was home.

"In the bedroom." He said and he sounded so sick.

I walked to the kitchen and made him a cup of tea with honey in it and brought it to him together with some medicine for his soar throat.

"Oh my god, thanks a lot babe." He said and sipped his tea. He was laying in bed with the covers packed around him and his Mac beside him with Netflix open.

"What are you watching?" I said as I took at my jeans and jumped in next to him.

"This historical drama thingy you wanted me to watch." Shawn said and smiled at me like he was a dog waiting for a treat.

"Oh, you mean Outlander? I'm so proud of you!" I said in a baby voice.

He just laughed at me.

"It's actually quite good, I like it." He admitted.

"Yeah I know, that's why I wanted you to watch it... duh" I said sarcastically.

Shawn and I snuggled up in bed and watched three more episodes of the series before I decided to make some food.

"What do you want for dinner?" I asked him while I stood up from bed.

"I don't know, can we just have some take out?"

"Sure thing, Chinese or sushi or pizza...? What do you want?" I asked him as I picked up my phone.

"Just some Chinese, with extra chicken in my noodles."

"Of course Shawn, we're married, I know what you want." I said and laughed at him.

"Just have to make sure." He said through a chuckle.

I called up our nearest Chinese place and ordered the take out.

"I have to go pick it up, will you be okay here?" I asked Shawn as I kissed his head.

"Babe, I'm sick, I'm not dying."

This really upsets me, cause he almost died four months ago. My eyes brimmed with water and a tear quickly escaped my eye. My shoulders sunk and my whole frame seemed to collapse.

Shawn's face turned into a worried one once he saw it. He stood up and hugged me, realizing what he just said had hit me like a truck. He held me very tight, knowing that he said the wrong thing.

"Don't you dare joke about that! I nearly lost you!" I screamed into his chest, my hands banging on his chest.

"Babe I'm sorry okay? It was meant as a joke I'm so sorry to upset you!" He said and calmed me down pretty quickly.

"Okay I'm off, see you in a bit." I said and pulled away from his embrace and wiped my tears. I ruffled his hair and then walked out of the room and out of the apartment to get our food.

Disclaimer: YOU DON'T HAVE TO IMAGINE JACK JOHNSON, you can imagine Jack G or anyone else. I'm just using him as a character because I personally like him, but I write this story so YOU will enjoy it and I stand by that, so you can all chose who the characters are to you.

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